Wednesday, April 24, 2013
If you've read the last blog you know that I fell off the juicing wagon. I tried to use the excuse that the ice cream was melted and I drank it, but I ended up having to concede to the fact that, no matter how I shaped my mouth when I said it, I just couldn't make it sound right. I don't know if I will be able to maintain this for 60 days, but that's because I am completely broke for the next month or two until my financial aid check comes in and I can pay down the credit cards I use to sustain myself between financial aid checks, but I'm going to do the best that I can for as long as I can. This morning I had a most delicious breakfast of spinach leaves, cilantro, apple, carrot, cucumber, and salt, topped with water and extracted into a drinkable form. It is SO good! Then I made - I'm drinking it right now - spinach leaves, flax seed meal, banana (2), frozen strawberries, frozen rhubarb, chocolate protein powder, and topped off with almond milk. It tastes like a milkshake, but without the guilt.
Because of my financial situation while I'm in school I feel like I am just setting myself up for failure by starting something new - like the 60- day juice fast. Until I graduate and begin working it would be more realistic to eat what I am able to eat in moderation, log my nutrition, and work out. I wonder if I attempt to do things like this in an effort to create situations in which I will fail, and maintain these self-fulfilling prophesies which have told me since I was a wee girl that I was a failure. Knowing that I am not a failure unless I intentionally set myself up to fail, wouldn't it be more beneficial to steer clear of situations which I know I am unable to commit to for the long term? In all fairness to myself, I am going to do the best I can for as long as I can, and when I am unable to continue I will eat what is available in moderation. There - no failure need apply!