You used to be much more...muchier."
Wednesday, April 24, 2013
You've lost your muchness." Best lines ever and they come from the Mad Hatter. But, they are seriously true.
I think I went so obsessive since November about my weight loss and healthy eating while I used that to help me deal with everything that happened...but, here I am a few months later completely burnt out.
While I'm still managing to hover on the higher side of my calorie range I'm back to eating junk and sugar. I've gone through this before...just because I can fit cookies into my daily food does not mean I should. I'm not really understanding why I want it all so bad anyhow. I was feeling fantastic eating mostly vegetarian, grains, and very little fruit and avoiding sugar.
My workouts are seeming to depend on the weather. But I'm seriously bummed and frustrated with the weather. Problem is...it is beautiful outside but not comfortable. Every day for several days now we've had winds over 15 mph and it is cool out which makes that wind just cut through you. I was just so much easier to workout inside when it was snowy, dreary and gray. When it's so blue and beautiful I want to be out in it if I'm doing nothing but being outside.
I really dislike being cold. The thermometer on the porch says it's 38 right now and I believe it. I think that's a part of my mental funk is that by this time of year the fields should be plowed, planted, and some would even have some corn starting to poke through. But, as my poor garden has indicated the weather just isn't willing. I had some sprouts coming up but, they froze or drown so now it's on to the backup plan it's a good thing I started extras of all my plants in Jiffy greenhouse starters inside the house.
I've got to renew my enthusiasm some how because I'm so close to seeing a weight that doesn't start with 2 and I want it so bad. The desire isn't the problem...just the motivation. I seem to have none. Well...off to make some lunch, bundle up and make myself do something.