Wednesday, April 24, 2013
As I sit here and think about the past couple weeks I have to be honest with myself and say that I am my own worst enemey. I am so hard on myself and tend to let my mind get the best of me. I have been frustrated with myself as I have been focusing in on summer coming and people shedding their winter clothes to reveal skin, toned bodies, and the hard work they put in over the winter. I look at myself and did not reach the goal that I had inititally set out for shedding my winter clothes but had to take a step back and really look at what I can reveal. Although my mid section is far from toned it is 17 inches smaller than what it was at Christmas. My arms are over 2 inches smaller and my muscle build is getting bigger weekly. I have a long way to go as I have put the lbs on myself over the years but I am making my way to a goal that I set and I WILL achieve.
The purpose of this blog is not to get the praise that might come from people reading this or the encouragment that I will reach the goal I have set. I am proud and I know I will reach the goal because this girl for those who personally know me, know that if I set my mind to something come hell or high water this girl will achieve it and will not stop until I do. The purpose is to remind myself that yes I am my own worst critic as we all are and to not let our own mindset sabatoge what our hearts and bodies want. We all have the power to achieve and to change our mind set. I woke up today and put on smaller pants and finally an XL shirt not an XXL or a plus size shirt. I Also put on a pair of 15/16 pants not the 18/20s that I stuffed myself into January 1. I smiled and reminded myself that I am the one in charge of what size i am and it felt damn good to say i could fit into smaller clothes without stuffing myself. ITs a slow journey and frustrations will come but they will not rule me!