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Wednesday, April 24, 2013

I know, I know

this isn't motivational, inspirational, encouraging or any of the things it should be.

Right now I can feel the depression monster nipping at my heels - calling my name loudly

Although I know I've had some wonderful and motivating comments and messages and am thankful for them ... right now, I feel alone

It's much more than that, much deeper than that, just trying to pull me under and I don't want to go
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

IKACEY 4/25/2013 6:22AM

    Honey you aren't alone. When you're depressed it sure feels that way though. You hurt so much that you can't stand people to touch you, yet you so desperately want them to. As has been said here God will reach you when no one else can. Also check with your physician to see if there is a physical cause. Its so good that you could blog about it. That is a good step to overcoming it. There has been some good advice given here by those who care about you and are willing to stand beside you in your time of need. When you're ready I hope you will listen to them. emoticon
IKacey co-leader of the Chair Exercise Team

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TWINKS55 4/24/2013 10:11PM

I know the feelings of struggling, of loneliness, of feeling there is no hope for me. Its a very difficult pit to come up out of. May you be blessed with a way to help lift you up.
Is there anything that you find inner strengthens you, even a bit?Nature? Relaxation music? Meditation? Visualization? Prayer? Scriptures? A good movie? Etc. Even a drop of "water" when you are "thirsty" helps a bit.
You are in my thoughts and prayers. I see that you have good Spark Friends. May you feel our love. Many hands are reaching out to you.

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SAINTBERNARD6 4/24/2013 4:57PM

    Oh my....I first read "snuggling" sorry you are have a difficult time right now.......we all have those times.......

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FISHER011 4/24/2013 4:49PM

    Bless you! You are in my thoughts & prayers.
Its great that you can feel the depression coming on & can blog about it- that's a good thing! You are aware & able to lift yourself up & out of despair.
Everyone has given wonderful advise! Now you are in control of your present feelings.
Like they say "Present is just what it means-Present, meaning here & now".
Do something for yourself! Whatever it may be...The present is a gift....
I call my time of need "Flat Lining"- when I'm like that, I can't ask for help, or even want it...I've learned to give myself over to God...the peace & love is there for the taking. He knows your struggles-turn to Him for comfort & love- he is always there!
Love & Peace emoticon

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WENDYW596 4/24/2013 2:40PM

    Dear Friend,
You have many Spark friends here that have commented and given encouragement. I have also fought depression off and on for years. Once it was a chemical unbalance, but most of the time it was just circumstances out of my control. Over the years, if I would trace my thoughts or occurrence backwards till it would dawn on me just what was making me feel this or that way, I could identify it and pray for God to help me overcome that feeling. Sometimes it would be something like one of my children leaving for school upset with me, and it would eat on me, but when I thought back, I could deal with it.... this is maybe not applicable to you......
I, like others, have sat down and listed on paper or spoke out loud all the blessings I would change my perspective so much..........
You are not alone..... God loves you and understands, and we all do too! emoticon

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NANCYPAT1 4/24/2013 11:41AM

    I will tell you that I have "been there, done that" with the depression cycles. I can even consciously KNOW I am not alone but feel completely and utterly isolated. Have you seen a doctor, a counselor, or someone who treats depression? Different things work for different people. If you are on or try ONE antidepressant and it doesn't work - do NOT get discouraged, there are lots more options. In addition to medications, healthy eating, exercise and cognitive/behavioral therapies that help you change your brain by changing your self talk and thinking patterns can make a difference. Some research suggests that a combination of two or three of these approaches is most effective. Just like eating well, sleeping well, and exercising combine to help with weight loss, a combination of strategies and general good health practices is stronger for healing virtually all medical and mental health conditions.

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DLIONALUM 4/24/2013 11:07AM

    Please know that you're never alone. It may feel that way, but you do have people who care. Just the people here in Sparkville are here to support you by the thousands. I know it feels dark right now, but take a moment and just start by thinking of one positive thing. Just one. It can be anything. You have a roof over your head, you woke up this morning, the milk in the fridge isn't sour, etc. Anything at all. Then think of a second positive thing. Try to get five things in your mind today that are good. Tomorrow, remember those five and try to think of five more. Each day, challenge yourself to think of more positive things that will help you to keep moving through each day and lifting yourself from those depressed feelings. My hugs to you!

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JOANIE69 4/24/2013 10:53AM

    Thank you for your honest blog today. I have suffered from depression in the past, and when I told my doctor I could not explain my "down" mood, as things in my life were going well (for the most part), she told me that a lot of the time that depression is due to a chemical imbalance in the body, and not due to circumstances. (Coincidentally, after the menopause and a total hysterectomy, those hormones toned down and I am no longer plagued with depression.) The physically-caused type of depression can be harder to fight, BUT it requires an attitude change just as depression caused mainly by our low finances and an unhappy marriage or death of a loved one.

I agree with all the comments so far, plus would tell you to thank God by saying "Praise the Lord...I am SO depressed today!' I know that sounds inane...but it can work, and just exclaiming it can make you chuckle. I have a friend whom I had not seen in ages and when I met her in the Mall one day and asked her "How are you?" She replied, "I have cancer, praise the Lord!" I was taken aback at first but when I realized she was full of the joy of the Lord and really meant it...ergo that she had accepted His will for her...I was inspired for the rest of my life since then to adopt the same attitude when in need myself. She not only beat that cancer but a subsequent one, and is the same cheerful Christian to this day.

I hope I have added some little thing to all the wisdom already here for you, and please know that I have already prayed for you and shall continue to do so. Continue to trust yourself, your body and mind and circumstances, wholly to God, and He shall carry you through this valley. This too shall pass...Love, Joanie

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CIROHIO 4/24/2013 10:34AM

    Honey you are never alone. God is always will us! Lean on Him , chat with him ask him for the strength you need right now.
I to believe it or not suffer from depression. I do not have insurance, can not afford the medicine that I use to take. I lean very heavy on my faith to make it through my days. After realizing I was trying to take on the world alone and was failing badly, I started to turn to God. I am such a happier person. Depression is an awful disease, but with God's help you can do it. Sit down and get a sheet of paper write down all the things you have to be thankful for. You will be surprised at all the positive things that you do have in your life. Read some of the Sparks Blogs for there are so many uplifting stories and there are not all about weight lost. Hoping as a Spark friend I have helped you feel a tad better, and gave you something positive to think about. Here for you any time. emoticon

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MZLADY77 4/24/2013 10:22AM

    Practice praise power! Praising God has power to lift your spirit, sloose you from your bondages and give you victory in every circumstance. "Rejoice in the Lord alway: and again I say Rejoice" Phil 4:4


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EDITOR 4/24/2013 10:13AM

    Caz, Psalm 42:5 " Why am I so depressed? Why this turmoil within me? Put your hope in God, for I will still praise Him, my Savior and my God."

May you receive an answer and direction. Some of us in an entire lifetime never get a complete resolve until we are in heaven and until we emoticon from earth, twin.

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JESS0107 4/24/2013 9:48AM

    Just remember! Case all your cares upon God for he knows your every need!! I will also pray for you as well and I'm always here if you need to talk!!

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SWIMLOVER 4/24/2013 9:19AM

  "Casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you." 1 Peter 5:7 NKJV

You are not alone! GOD cares for you and so do we! We are here for you!

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May The LORD give you HIS comfort!


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JOHGLO2011 4/24/2013 9:18AM

    Do you take medication for depression? I know it can be a big help to some people.
Hang on there honey - look for the good things - pray - realize you are never truly alone because God is there with you. Praying for you! emoticon

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JEN_ORR 4/24/2013 9:16AM

  Can you do 1 thing good for yourself today? Take 1 minute for you and love one thing about who you are. You are not alone here.

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MRSP90X 4/24/2013 8:51AM

    Life with Christ is an endless hope, without him a hopeless end!

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