Wednesday, April 24, 2013
I want to say that I love working out. That I love eating right. I am staying within my calorie range ,well for the most part. I have noticed an increase in positive energy. Yesterday I was on top of the world. Today was a different story. I am tired, I woke up tired. I was unmotivated, cranky and just all around bad company today. I don't know what's wrong. Today was an emotional eating day. I worked out, reluctantly. I smiled at all the socially acceptable times but inside I was grumpy. I can't seem to put my finger on the issue, Nothing went wrong. The workout was completed(better than previously....nothing to be upset about that's for sure). I achieved goals. I don't know what it is. Perhaps I am just missing my life in georgia more than I thought. I am staying at my mom's for another month and a bit. I have been here since the end of February. I miss my cat, my husband, my things. I thought I had this under control. I don't actively feel sad. Perhaps it's the weather. I am use to sunshine and warm days. it's been cold and cloudy as of late here in Montana. Maybe that;s the reason. I stayed strong.....well strongish. I had a Mountain Dew today. I also didn't care what I ate for dinner. That was a BAD moment. I have been so focused and HAPPY. Where is this coming from? Well, I stayed mostly on the path. I stayed close to my calorie goal. Although I was eating more unhealthy choices. I didn't fall off the wagon. I am still standing, although it is with a sadness in my heart. I wish I knew why. Oh well the sun will be rising tomorrow and I will be there as well. I will get up and workout and see if the day isn't a little brighter after. It usually is. I will gracefully accept that this was one of those days, move on ,and tuck myself into bed and get some good sleep. I have overcome much and I WILL overcome this.