Wednesday, April 24, 2013
I've had a strange few days. But I will start off on a positive note, I am pretty sure I am going to get OVER 1,000 fit mins this month! That is really huge for me. I'm not sure the last time I got 1,000 fit mins, but it's been a really long time. So I am very proud to see that I am getting one part of this weight loss equation in order. My food, on the other hand, is not great. I haven't been as diligent on tracking, and this must stop. I am completely done with being overweight. And am fully ready to do anything and everything I have to do to remedy this situation. It's taken me a long time to be fully committed, but now is the time. I am really, really tired of being this weight, and it has to change, now.
In my zeal to lose weight and get consistent fit mins, I hurt myself on Sunday. I actually had to take off of work today. It is my right knee. I was walking, fast, very fast, for 3.5 miles, and for the last two days I could barely walk. And I know this isn't great, but I'm not going to stop exercising. I forced myself to go to water aerobics tonight, even though I could barely make it down my stares. When I got there, I wasn't sure if I could do all of the exercises, but I did. I worked hard, and did my very best. And I felt a lot better when I got out of the pool. I am not going to let a small injury, or anything else get in my way. I am more serious than I've been in years about reaching my goal. And nothing is going to stop me!! Wow, I feel a little bit of my warrior woman coming back. I like it!!
I had a hard week. Missed Tim like crazy. Attempting, to the very best of my ability to stay positive, and active and healthy, mentally, emotionally and physically. It is always very hard for me when he is home for awhile and then goes back on the road. I miss him terribly. But there are good things that come from lot's of free time. One being, of course, lot's of time for exercise. Also, the apartment, and my car are spotless. And today, since I took the day off to let my knee heal, I pulled out my art box and FINALLY finished a photo book I've been working on for 7(!!!!!!!) years. It is a book of all the places my husband and I went to over the first two years of our relationship. It is really wonderful. I had pamphlets, magazines and flyers from everywhere we went. So it is packed with tons of things to read and look at from places like Tennessee,Georgia, Yellowstone, Yosemite, multiple parts of Oregon, various California spots, Montana, Idaho and Mexico. We did a lot of traveling over those two years, and it feels incredible to finally have it all finished. I can't believe it took me 7 years to finish, but it is done, and it looks great, and I can't wait for him to come home to see it. I would have loved to have room for all the places we saw this summer, Utah, Colorado, Nebraska, Wyoming, and Washington. But if I do that, it will have to be in another book! This one is full, and done! It is pretty neat to look back and remember all the places we've been. For poor folks, we get around!
We're still seriously discussing the Southern Oregon move. It is a topic with lot's of excitement, fear and anxious anticipation. I am always up for an adventure, but somehow, my desire to survive, trumps my desire for adventure. So, we'll see what the next year holds for us. The idea of leaving my job and family still makes me a little naseous. But, all in all, I'm sure we will attempt the move at some point. It may be a huge bust, like our Arizona adventure this summer, or it may be a great new begining. Only time will tell.
The most important adventure right now, however, is losing weight, and saving money. Two things that I haven't been very good at in a long time. Two things that are very important for my future, and two things that I can't give up one, ever. I have to succeed. And I will give all of my energy to succeed in these areas. I am finally seeing that in order to succeed, in either of these things, I am going to have to kick up my efforts 100%. I must be must stronger, and much more consistent if I want success. I thought I could make it by giving 50-75%, but that will never happen.........it's more like 150%. So, I'm mentally prepared to do things that I've never done before in order to achieve what I haven't been able to achieve. I feel very strong, very confident, and very sure that I will succeed. I just have to pull out all the stops and push harder than I've been willing to push in the past, (without hurting myself in the process.)
Thanks to all of you for your support throughout this whole journey. I love you guys so much! Hope your lives are brimming with positive motivation to be your best. Cheers to us, life and living everyday to it's fullest!