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Wednesday, April 24, 2013

Those of you who have "known" me for over two years know this has always been the background on my Sparkpage. I have never thought to change it because it has always applied to my situation - no matter what it has been. At first it was to walk 30 mins, then to run/walk 30 mins. It has been there while I survived Jillian Michaels using Ifit on the treadmill, training for my first 5k, my first 10k, a bunionectomy, and 4 1/2 marathons! For the past three months it has helped reinforce the end of the tunnel with the nightmare I am going through with my son. We take baby steps day by day and things are getting better. Six weeks ago I prepared for his death and here he is now almost thirty pounds heavier wanting to get better. Today we found out he still has a long qt (heart issue). We were really hoping it was related to malnutrition and would be gone. Problem is that it is also hereditary and his second cousin has it. She is 8 years old and if she faints again or has another attack she will get a pace maker! My son has never had any of the side affects but it is the reason why young guys all of a sudden, out of the blue have a heart attack and die. So I thank God we found out. My son will go to a cardiologist and do all preventative steps necessary.

I talk to my husband several times during the day since we can't see eachother a lot with one of us being in California right now. He had hoisted a few with his BFF and voiced that this is all starting to get to him. I am going home with my son tomorrow night so I will get to see my husband for a week. Now he wants me and him to take a cross country road trip with a uhaul and Roxy and my son's car. I am all for it - another thing off my bucket list!

My husband and I have been married almost 26 years. This is the most time we have ever spent apart. I am actually flattered and surprised that he misses me! He complains a lot when I am around - my memory is bad and I repeat things a lot (which he always points out!). I guess I grew on him!! Anyway, my background quote helps me with this to - it will be worth it! My son will LIVE and be okay. I still honestly wonder if he will stay out in California. I personally think after his exgirlfriend drama (yes, she is still bugging him- his therapist thinks she has borderline personality disorder - can you say Jodi Arias?) that he should come home. He is safer across country right now and has a great team of doctors.
His therapist said she is happy he is flying right back after getting a restraining order because she thinks his ex is going to flip and go looking for him! Scary stuff! No wonder he is stressed!

So this is why I run!!!!!!!

Hope you are having a great week!

Remember - it's all worth it!
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    I am so happy that things are getting better for your family. I know the situation is still scary, but there seems to be a light appearing at the end of the tunnel. I can see that this is also bringing your family so much closer. My prayers continue to be with you and your family as you go through this :)
    1783 days ago
    I so understand the 'this is why I run', For years I ran to relieve job stress, to find solutions to problems at the job, and for peace. I'm so happy to hear your son is doing so well. Will keep you all in my prayers! emoticon




    1785 days ago
    Definitely worth hanging in there!
    1785 days ago
    This was a great blog! I understand "So this is why I run!!!!!!!" In my younger days, running was a way to de-stress and sometimes how I went from place to place. Mononucleosis put a damper on my running and I never went back to it.

    1787 days ago
    I love the quote. It is worth keeping as a background for years because it will always apply. I wish your son the best.
    1787 days ago
    Your perspective makes you a hero just as much as your running achievements--- more so! Having had a cherished marriage that didn't survive such tribulation, I'm so very happy for you that you and DH have something fantastic, between you and in the family you've built. It's hard to think of our blessings in the middle of difficulties like this, but you ARE blessed. ((HUGS))

    PS - Just saw your reply. Yes, my ex and I are still friends, still spend holidays together, even with new SO's. Our "polyamicable family" includes a prior ex of his, and her subsequent ex's, the stepchildren and their ex's, everyone's current partners, etc. It's odd, but it works for all of us -- who has time and energy to waste on feeling bittern? :)
    1787 days ago

    Comment edited on: 4/24/2013 10:45:17 AM
  • MAGGIE101857
    You are such an amazing strong woman! Such wonderful news about your son; I can't imagine anything worse than losing a child and wonder how others survive the loss. So happy to hear that he is on the road to better health, mentally and physically.

    As for the hubby.....don't we all feel the same way at times? emoticon We all have those little quirks that drive the other crazy; hopefully we can find acceptance and perhaps a bit of humor in it! A cross country trip sounds wonderful! Perhaps some day.....I can do the same!

    Life isn't easy, but YES, IT'S WORTH IT! Every minute that we are given on this Earth is a blessing! emoticon
    1788 days ago
    So glad to read that your son now wants to get better. What a different place from a couple of months ago. What a blessing to have learned about his heart disease throughout this ordeal considering what might have been if they hadn't discovered this issue. Thanks for updating on your son's health. Will continue to pray for you all, including his safety as the restraining order is put into place.
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  • TAMARA_2014
    The quote is amazing. I have a rare disease and gained a lot of weight from it, so it is words to live by. Your story here actually is inspiring to me, and I thank you for sharing. Stop by my page if you wish.
    1788 days ago
  • ZRIE014
    i'm one week back into running after over 5 mo off and it is a day to day process to try to get back to where i was. it is going to take time to get back.
    1788 days ago
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