I'm not telling you it's gonna be easy, I am telling you it's gonna be worth it...
Wednesday, April 24, 2013
Those of you who have "known" me for over two years know this has always been the background on my Sparkpage. I have never thought to change it because it has always applied to my situation - no matter what it has been. At first it was to walk 30 mins, then to run/walk 30 mins. It has been there while I survived Jillian Michaels using Ifit on the treadmill, training for my first 5k, my first 10k, a bunionectomy, and 4 1/2 marathons! For the past three months it has helped reinforce the end of the tunnel with the nightmare I am going through with my son. We take baby steps day by day and things are getting better. Six weeks ago I prepared for his death and here he is now almost thirty pounds heavier wanting to get better. Today we found out he still has a long qt (heart issue). We were really hoping it was related to malnutrition and would be gone. Problem is that it is also hereditary and his second cousin has it. She is 8 years old and if she faints again or has another attack she will get a pace maker! My son has never had any of the side affects but it is the reason why young guys all of a sudden, out of the blue have a heart attack and die. So I thank God we found out. My son will go to a cardiologist and do all preventative steps necessary.
I talk to my husband several times during the day since we can't see eachother a lot with one of us being in California right now. He had hoisted a few with his BFF and voiced that this is all starting to get to him. I am going home with my son tomorrow night so I will get to see my husband for a week. Now he wants me and him to take a cross country road trip with a uhaul and Roxy and my son's car. I am all for it - another thing off my bucket list!
My husband and I have been married almost 26 years. This is the most time we have ever spent apart. I am actually flattered and surprised that he misses me! He complains a lot when I am around - my memory is bad and I repeat things a lot (which he always points out!). I guess I grew on him!! Anyway, my background quote helps me with this to - it will be worth it! My son will LIVE and be okay. I still honestly wonder if he will stay out in California. I personally think after his exgirlfriend drama (yes, she is still bugging him- his therapist thinks she has borderline personality disorder - can you say Jodi Arias?) that he should come home. He is safer across country right now and has a great team of doctors.
His therapist said she is happy he is flying right back after getting a restraining order because she thinks his ex is going to flip and go looking for him! Scary stuff! No wonder he is stressed!
So this is why I run!!!!!!!
Hope you are having a great week!
Remember - it's all worth it!