Tuesday, April 23, 2013
I woke this morning knowing that today will be a dedicated 'clothing elimination day', a day in which every article of my clothing will be taken from the wardrobe or drawers, checked to see whether I have any intentions of wearing it in the future, and if not, assessed as to whether it is suitable to be donated to a charity shop or is ready to be thrown out or turned into something more useful.
These days happen once every so often, but this one is special. This time I'm not doing it because those things I used to wear are now too small. This time there will be no sadness, no feelings of inadequacy, of hopelessness or helplessness. Every other time I've been left feeling really down, and certain that this all my life has to hold for me in the future, more excess weight, and less ability to do something positive about turning that and my own life around.
Today, instead, I am doing it because this is the new me, a far more positive, spiritually grounded person, and a person who is, incidentally, a size or two smaller. Today I will keep only the clothing I wish to wear, the clothing that makes me feel glad about all my life holds for me, both now and in the future. By the end of today I am going to be able to look behind my wardrobe doors and be pleased with what I see there - well organized clothing, nothing I am holding on to 'just in case', and only the clothes I am happy to be seen in. Gone will be the old, tired looking clothes I have grown over the past weeks to dislike, because they remind me of the 'old me'.
I know how empowering this will be. I felt the most amazing sense of relief when I eventually sorted through the ten large plastic storage tubs of completely unrelated and unneeded bits and pieces which had lurked behind the wardrobe in my computer room for way too long. Not only do we free up the waste space in our homes when we do this, we also set ourselves free of the past!
I am a different person, a far happier, more positive person now, someone who has purpose in each and every day, and who has laid all that old negativity to rest.