Tuesday, April 23, 2013
Okay, Level 2, day 7.
I'm past the halfway point. It is starting to feel like five pound weights are not enough when I'm doing rows and curls, but still too much when I'm doing raises. Maybe when I get to day 30, I'll get myself some 8 lb weights and start all over again. Well, we'll see how level 3 goes first. The first time I did the shred, I kind of gave up in the middle of level 3. I wasn't seeing any results, I was getting bored and frustrated. I'm determined to do the whole thing this time. As for results, well...
I've gained three pounds since starting the Shred this time. But some of that may be just from water retention, stress and pizza. Let's see what happens in the next week or so. I can see a tiny bit of definition in my biceps and shoulders. The muscles on the front of my things (quads?) are tighter. There's still way to much jiggling in the midsection for my liking. My BMI is still too high. I'm still in the same clothing size. I'm trying to make a habit out of remembering to drink water once I get home from work. The only thing there is that now I'm waking up in the middle of the night for bathroom breaks. After that first awakening, I just keep waking up...a couple of times every hour. I'm tempted to get one of those body monitor things so I can show my doctor hard evidence of how much my sleep is disrupted.
The Remeron, which is what's keeping me from losing weight, is what is supposed to help me sleep. And it does. Immensely. I can fall asleep in a reasonable amount of time. And when I wake up, I can fall back asleep. But I have never (and I mean in decades) gotten more than three consecutive hours of sleep in a row. Never. I'm jealous of people who can. I don't even know what it's like. I bet it's nice. However, falling asleep for me at all is such a treat.
I guess when it comes down to it, I'd rather be chubby than insomniac. I shouldn't beat myself up about things...I have lost ten pounds since I started SP. I know I'm healthier than I was. I'd just like to be healthy and skinny at the same time