Tuesday, April 23, 2013
This was my daughter's Facebook Status. I kept falling off of Spark, quitting, giving up and thinking that I could do better alone. I couldn't. I decided back on February 8th that I needed to stop looking for ways to lose weight and get serious and get rid of this weight. Being pre-diabetic and on Metformin, I still was not listening to the doctor. I would wake up, eat candy for breakfast (that is what I call the cereal's that they have on the shelves today, pure sugar should just be eating candy - Fruit Loops, Fruity Pebbles - pure sugar) and sometimes in the middle of the night, I would grab a handful of jellybeans to snack on. I went to the doctor and she said, Diabetes runs in your family, if you gain any more weight, I will have to put you on Insulin. Still hardheaded, I still ate the things that I know were not good fuel for my body. My daughter came home for a visit and I did not want to move out of the bed. I was so very tired (more like lazy but I called it tired). She said to me "you are what you eat and if you don't care about what you are eating then the grandchildren you keep bothering me to have, will never know you because you will most likely be dead or too out of shape to enjoy them." THIS WOKE ME UP! It wasn't the words she used, it was how she said them. She was never ashamed of me no matter how big or small I was, she was always proud but she was worried. How can you look into your child's eyes, hear the pain in their voice and not wake up. 2/8/2013 was my wake up date. I don't want to lose weight. To lose something means that I am looking to find it. I don't want to find these pounds, I want to get rid of them. I called my doctor and had a full physical because it was time for me to hit the gym. I weighed in at 234lbs (I was so embarrassed). How did I get this big?? I said to myself. I always walk, would exercise and can't figure out why I stopped. I allowed life to take me down a path of working at a desk, eating at the desk, eating in front of the TV and eating and watching TV while in bed. I logged back into my Spark account (hadn't been on it in so long that I had to click "Forgot my password"). I looked at the last time I logged my weight back in 2012 and I was 198. I had gained 36lbs. I started looking over different exercise plans that would focus on not just losing the weight but also toning. What would help me to burn more calories (Cardio, Intervals or Strength training). I decided that a lifestyle change in eating (not wanting to use the word diet), plus aerobics and weights seemed like the best for me. Starting at 4 times a week for 30 minutes doing Zumba or Rockin Body/P90X videos while holding 10lb weights (I thought I was going to see Heaven my first 2 times but I stuck with it) and 30 minutes on the treadmill at an incline of 12 with the speed being 3.9 for 4 minutes and running at a speed of 5.5 for 1 minute on a 0 incline, 15 minutes on the weight machines at the FREE gym at my job (I put that in all caps because this is how sad I was. I work in a place that has a full free gym built in the entire basement of the building for the employees and I would walk right by it). I decided to eat small meals 5-6 times a day every 3 hours starting at 8AM but not eating anything heavy after 6PM so my last snack would be fruit, raisins or peanut butter on wheat crackers. I would do 10 minutes of yoga stretching every morning and before bed, it relaxed my body which helped me to sleep. Almost 3 months later and I now weight 196lbs. I sent the picture of me at a dinner function where I had a beautiful hot pink shirt but could not button the shirt so I wore a mock turtle neck under it, to my daughter. Then I sent her a picture of me in the same shirt and she was so proud, she posted this on her Facebook page. I wish there was a way for me to show you how many people "Liked" that picture but I didn't want to post anyone's names but I received 182 comments congratulating me, telling me how beautiful I am, people asking how I did it and even a few joining Spark People! I have 25lbs more to get rid of but I am glad to have found my Spark.