Tuesday, April 23, 2013
I'm sitting here recovering from my run. It was not a complete training run. About half way through, the battery died. I tried to keep running, but just didn't have enough to get it done. I did walk home. In total, covered 2.5miles. So it's not too bad. My legs feel the workout. So do my lungs.
Part of me just wants to call it a day. Focus now on my nutrition, and just do things from the couch. I can go through the dance videos, work out the choreography, I can do my taxes, I can apply for work.
But there's a part of me nagging at the back of my mind. Why am I not going to the gym. Getting in a Strength Training session, and a dance practice? I know why. There are actually two reasons.
1. I am trying to justify not needing to go. I ran. I am feeling the effects of the run. I don't want to burn myself out by doing too much too fast. This is honestly a HUGE part of why I want to stay home.
2. This is the one that I'm thinking I may have more problem breaking through. I'm scared. It's not part of my normal. It's outside of my comfort zone. As strange as it may sound to be afraid of this, think about it. We all have our comfort zones. Getting out of them is scary. For you, it may be terrifying to run down the street outside, where everyone can see you, jiggling and all. That's not scary for me - that's in my comfort zone.
I don't know if I'll go to the gym today or not. But I will have to find a way to overcome this fear of getting out of my comfort zone soon. I won't let this defeat me. I'm stronger than that.