Tuesday, April 23, 2013
Well it's another week. I'm 37 days into my 60 day challenge. I've found that I have not lost much weight, but I have lost a few inches. This is good, more than I expected.
I saw my doctor on Friday, told her I've been working out and tracking my food, she thinks I should be down more than I am since last time I was in, so we have decided to try me on Phetermine, which is an appetite suppressant and see if it helps any more. I have an appointment with the specialist on the 9th, and I'm to let him know what I am on and for him to do a check up and make sure my body is doing all right with it. It can have some side effects. Basically if I want any chance to get pregnant, I need to get the weight down. The PCOS and hormones are still crazy out of whack and so my doc wants to try anything possible right now to help me get the weight down.
I'm so tired of all this and I just want to be better. I'm trying to stay optimistic, but sometimes it's really easy to let myself get down. I turned 33 Saturday and I was sad that I am still without a child of my own. I actually cried about it a little. I feel like I am running out of time, that my body is giving up on me before I am ready. My husband is so supportive and sweet about it, I just don't know how to explain to him the disappointment I have in myself about the whole situation. Even if I don't get that chance to have a child of my own, I'm determined to fight the hormone problems and weight. I have to at least get past that and be healthy for me and any children I foster/adopt.
I hope my spark friends are doing well. I'm hoping to get them interested in the next workout challenge I get in on. It has really changed how I feel about working out and I actually look forward to it more often now. :)