Tuesday, April 23, 2013
So I have resolved to attempt to blog everyday, because I am hoping that by broadcasting my feelings out to the universe I am able to get rid of them inside and can stop dwelling on them.
Lately I have been feeling like I am suffocating at work, and feeling like it is turning me into a bad employee. I have been promoted to a new position, and it has been something I have been striving for the last 5 years of my career., but now I am drowning. I am overwhelmed, over worked and starting to question whether or not this is something I really want to do with the rest of my life, maybe , just maybe I am not cut out for the financial industry, maybe I am better suited to helping people but not is a sales mind set. I just dont know what the answer is.
When I was promoted, I was so excited becuase I thought this was the level I wanted to play on, but lack of sufficient training and support has left me feeling like maybe I am not cut out for this. My clients are suffering and I am suffering. I just dont know if I want to quit, give up so to speak, but at the same time I dont feel that I working at or reaching my full potential in this job, and I have no idea what to do.
I really wish that I could stop feeling dread when I walk through the doors to my office, or wish I could stop the insomnia becuase I am constantly thinking about what I have to do, who I have to call and how I am going to get through the day without having a nervous breakdown.
I wish the answer was simple, and I wish I knew for certain things were going to get better, because at this very second, I cant see it.