Tuesday, April 23, 2013
I am struggling to find my motivation to get moving again today. Right now, all I want to do is melt into the couch and not move at all.
Yesterday I was in a lot of abdominal pain. I was stuck on the couch because of it.
I have a half marathon this September I am training for. For some reason, I really don't seem to care about it all that much.
I want to get some boudoir photos done this fall. I know i need to do a little bit every day to have a body to be proud of. I still have plenty of time to get there. In my head, I KNOW this means time to do the work to get there, not time to put it off. But the reality is I'm a procrastinator.
I also am thinking of competing in Edmonton this fall at River City. I need to get to work on my dance routines if I'm going to get it done. I not only have routines to learn, I have to improve my dance skills. Frame, stretch and compression in my own body, turning, spotting for turning, core strength, and most of all styling. Making it look great.
I need to face some realities.
I can't put this off, or I'll NEVER do it.
I won't always have this much time. I am still looking for work. I need to get back to work. I'm also going to try to get back into school. If - no not if, When I do both my time will be so much more restricted. I might as well take full advantage of my time off to do what I can to reach my goals NOW!!
If I don't get moving, I'll NEVER get moving.
I'm not sure why, but my procrastinator streak is strong. It's my comfort zone. It affects every aspect of my life. I really don't like that. I need to find a way to get past it.