It's okay not to be perfect
Tuesday, April 23, 2013
So being in the real estate law business, this last week of the month is a really busy one for me so I havent been on here much. Not to mention, I am trying to break some of my obsessive compulsive tendencies which includes feeling like I need to blog every day (and calorie count like I had blogged about before).
It's just so much my personality to obsess on things. It's the perfectionist in me that just needs everything perfect. Yesterday I was going to blog about my skate race this past weekend and it was going to look something like this:
In the 3 girl relay and 4mix relay I felt pretty good, but a little sluggish at first. I got 3rd in the 3 girl and did not place in the 4mix.
In the open race I was very proud of myself for placing 5th. This tends to be one of the most difficult races because it is the longest and has the most people. I do think I needed to be more aggressive in making passes and not letting people pass me.
In the individual 500m race I place 3rd. I got stuck behind a really slow girl on the start and it held me back a lot. I'm not sure I had anything for first or second place, but I didn't give myself much of an opportunity to try by taking so long to pass.
In the 1500m I got 2nd. I felt pretty good in the race, my legs were finally starting to feel good. I still think I was a little cautious in this race and wasn't focused.
In the 2girl relay, I felt AMAZING. We got 4th and did not podium, but I was skating absolutely amazing and was very pleased, but still a little bummed that my partner wasn't skating quite as well.
In the outdoor 500m, I got 4th overall and 2nd in my age group. I got a really bad start, but closed in a huge gap so I was pleased with that.
In the outdoor 10k I got 3rd overall and 2nd in my age group. I kind of go back and forth with this race. I mixed it up a lot and threw a lot of passes, but being an endurance skater, I needed to push the pace and I never did because I was hesitant that my legs weren't feeling good. I've never been afraid to push the pace so I wasn't sure why I was and never did!
Now looking at the above, I can just see the obsessiveness and perfectionism! I obsess over every little detail and I think that's why I get so nervous and don't perform as well at skating competitions. I just put so much pressure on myself.
I'm really trying to let loose a little bit though and not obsess and harp on every little detail. It's okay not to be perfect.