Tuesday, April 23, 2013
Today was a decent enough day. Lady Kettleball and I had a productive 30 minute visit. I did a practice test for the 802 exam and did well. I got several of my more glamorous jobs completed around the house too, despite waking up exhausted this morning.
I was out of cigarettes the majority of the day, so that is a bad thing for me. I spent the day snacking instead of smoking. I tried to curb it by drinking water, and managed to drink 12- 8oz glasses of water today, but I was at the tippy top end of calories and way over on carbs and fats today.
The husband felt the need to point out that I probably did not count "every calorie" I took in today either, which only made me feel worse. If I ever get a job, a food scale and a "my size" scale will be on the top of the list of things to purchase. But in the meantime, I count everything as more than a single portion, because I know I am not eating just a single serving of cereal (A cool whip bowl is NOT a single serving size, even if it is only half full!).
The 3 week overview- When I started my journey I was eating 4 servings for meals, I was not exercising, and I was sleeping in a recliner because it hurt less than sleeping in the bed (arms and legs and back from being so big). I only thought about cheap and filling meals for the family and never put any thought into healthy. Thinking it was too expensive.
End of Week 3- I exercise about 30 minutes a day (sometimes I go for an hour, but mostly stick to 30 minutes). My grocery list still contains "cheap and filling" meals, but those meals do include healthy vegetables. Snacks around the house are limited to cheese, fruits, veggies, and nuts. We used to go through 4 loaves of bread a week. I bought 3 loaves last pay period (switched to whole wheat), and we still have 1 left in the freezer after a two week period. I used to get 20$ worth of soda a pay period. That is now replaced with water. The daughter has decided she wants her lunch packed from home now, as she enjoys the taste of lighter foods now. The husband has stopped eating out at lunch time and now takes a healthier type of microwave meal instead. I have even convinced him to buy a 12 pack of soda and take one a day to work instead of buying an expensive convenience store bottle of soda every day!
How I feel- I have more energy. I do not sleep until 10am on the weekend, or go back to bed after I get the kid onto the bus every day. I no longer have migraines from lack of soda/toxins from greasy foods. My hands, feet, and face are no longer swollen when I wake up (less sodium intake). I am even finding I am disappointed if I miss my exercise times and try to fit them in later on on the day if I miss them.
Goals for the next week- Fight with the portion plate. (it has been a losing battle every week). Add 5 minutes more to my exercise time. Pass the 802 exam. (Trying to keep goals small so they are easily attainable).
As far as my battle for competent mothering. This was a particularly difficult week. My daughter is an only child, and after my son died, I over protected. She has underdeveloped social skills so we fight with her daily to get her to go to school. She did not have friends in school until we moved here in February. It is still a battle to get her to go though. Daily she asks to be home schooled. This week and next are the federal testing for kids here, and she is having an anxiety attack about it. Despite my assurances that it has nothing to do with her and everything to do with how the school is doing TEACHING her the required things. I took her to the store for milk tonight and explained that this test was not even for a grade, so we would not even be disappointed if she did poorly, so she had nothing to worry about at all. She still has to have a small toy to take to school (we call it her courage dog for when she does not have any courage and feels scared she can just grip it and get the courage she needs to carry on). She lost her courage dog today and cannot find it. I've looked all over the darned house but it has disappeared. Looks like I am going to have to buy a toy for her to replace it! Especially with these tests that she fears so much.