Tuesday, April 23, 2013
I am finding that this journey is full of interesting observations, perplexing "aha" moments, and quixotic questions about what the numbers on the clothes on the store racks (aka sizes) really mean. It is almost comical because I have never had these dilemmas before. It has always been (for some 30+ years) "go to the plus size store, grab the same old numbers (always within a range of numbers with ever-increasing Xs after them), and try to cover my gelatinous mass to a socially acceptable level to appear in public in a work situation."
Today, while I was dressing for work, I noticed that the person in the mirror look pretty okay in the rouched sweater she found on a clearance rack in a size she hasn't seen since junior high. What??? Really???? Yes, it was that startling an observation. I actually had to sit down and ponder that reality. It was both mystifying and sadly joyful...sad that it took so much and so long for me to get here...joyful that I am finally getting to experience this.
I am glad that I am taking this slow journey to health. I am learning to appreciate its pieces in small chunks so I hold each moment precious before I savor the next one.