Tuesday, April 23, 2013
I miss people seeing me and freaking out because I have "lost so much weight!"
There was a time when not a day went by that someone would not say that to me. This weekend we were with some friends we haven't seen in about 5-6 years. I was probably about the same size now as I was then. They didn't see me 40-50-60-70 pounds ago. Instead they were freaking out about my husband the whole time. He has lost about 60 pounds over the last 6 years due to stomach issues and lifestyle changes ( no fast food!). Plus we eat better because I cook that way and we also walk together.
It was really annoying listening to it all weekend! Especially because he isn't trying to be thin and I am! I know I'm a brat but still...
There was also a time that I didn't understand when people would say how hard this is. I tried to think of blog material so I would be more relatable but it was just so easy for me the first year, I was so excited and happy and energetic and annoying!
Now, a few months into my 4th year on spark and having gained back 20+ pounds, I have plenty of blog material about struggling!
I don't want to struggle, whine or complain but I do try to be honest. I wish I could go back to that magical first year of 50 pounds of weight loss, enjoy the shock on peoples faces, be at my goal weight and into maintenance but as we know, wishing doesn't make it happen.
Today I started again. Tomorrow, I will too. And every day thereafter.
I miss a lot of things but I don't think I will ever miss being fat. It really does nothing for me.