Tonight I went to a Run for Boston at our local running store, Lucky Foot. (They took some photos there and I am in a few of them, although it's hard to see me). When I found out about it, I thought it would be great to do, and since it was in the evening Jeff could stay with the kids. My son (who is becoming my regular little running buddy) wanted to come with me though, so of course I wanted him to.
Earlier today I was having kind of a rough time. For whatever reason this morning I started to feel very anxious. Sometimes I get like this and nothing makes me calm down. That is also when I have the urge to just eat and eat. I haven't had a binge in a really long time, and I could just feel one coming on. I kept snacking, and even though I ate a little more snacks than I should have today, it didn't turn into a binge, and my calories for the day came out ok, although slightly over. I tried doing things, like organizing coupons and paperwork, just to be busy, and I was still feeling like I would come unglued, so I took a xanax. I have a prescription, but don't take it very often unless I feel I really need it, and today I did.
By the time the kids got home from school, I was feeling better. The xanax makes me tired, so I was feeling sluggish. We left right before 6 to get there because there was a huge traffic back up and I didn't know how it would affect things. It was fine getting there, and we got there early and got our bibs. I didn't even know they were gonna have those, so that was cool. The bottom of it says, "Runners United to Remember."
After we ran
The whole time beforehand Aidan kept saying, "Don't leave me Mommy." I assured him I wouldn't. We were to run for 26 minutes, in a loop around where the store is. At first he was near me, but soon he was getting up ahead pretty far in front of me. That is what he normally does, and then tires out and needs to walk, but tonight he never slowed down! I couldn't believe it. I felt like I was dragging, even though I managed to keep under a 10 minute mile pace. My legs were just sore from skating yesterday and all the running I've done in the last week, too, not to mention the xanax. We'd done 3 laps around and were close to 26 minutes, so we turned around to go back to the store. When I stopped my watch at 26 minutes, it said I'd gone 2.62 miles. Is that crazy or what?
I enjoyed the run, because I got to run next to one of my friends who I hadn't seen in a while. She's been running for years and is really good and going to train for her first marathon this year. She's done a lot of half marathons and is the main person who has encouraged me to run and in the beginning gave me a lot of advice.
The people at these events, runners and walkers, are always so awesome. When I first started running I felt like I'd never fit in. I was slow and fat, and even though I am not super fast now or thin, for me it's fast and I've improved a lot. I've learned it doesn't really matter how slow or fast you are, it's just being involved and doing it that matters, and people are always so supportive of you. It felt good to come together to support everyone affected by the tragedy in Boston one week ago.
I pre-ordered a shirt too, which I am excited to get and proudly wear when I run. I'm also so proud of Aidan. It's like he was born to run. At the end he was red-faced and said, "I can't breathe." He pushed himself pretty hard and I told him there was no need to do that because it wasn't a race, but I think he just wants to impress me. I told him I was proud of him just for doing it in the first place.
Tomorrow is probably going to be a rest day for me. My legs are sore from all the running the last week. I might go for a walk though to loosen them up. There is a lot going on tomorrow. I've got to go to the school to drop off fruit for an event tomorrow night and go to my daughter's book fair, and then tomorrow night is the event my son's class is doing.
Were there any Boston events where you live? So far I've done 17.45 miles for Boston in the last week!