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1,698 Calories

Monday, April 22, 2013

I started over again after almost two weeks of skipping the gym and binge eating. I won't dwell. I allowed it to happen. It was my fault. But it is my responsibility to stop the cycle. I decided to stop it today.

I wore a sleeveless top at the gym. I successfully decided to pursue a healthy lifestyle more than three years ago, but felt too insecure to wear a sleeveless shirt at the gym. I felt too fat, even at my thinnest. Those days are over. I may not be at goal weight yet, but I have decided to accept my body as is. I am a work in progress. I will wear a red sleeveless top tomorrow morning at Spin.

I bought a pedometer online. I've realized that I binge and overeat when I am sad, lonely, overwhelmed, bored, and at home for too long on the weekends. Three years ago, when I often made $70, even $50 a paycheck, I would walk the pain away. (See this blog:
) The weather is wonderful. My life is now wonderful. And I will walk.

I ate 1,698 calories today. My calorie range for Mondays is 1,400. I overate at work. Too much peanut butter, and an unplanned lemonade drink. Tomorrow will be better. I went home. I was not hungry. So I did not eat. I brushed my teeth, and applied a facial mask. I don't remember the last time I did that. I have tried many times not to eat when I am not hungry, but the good side never wins. But, today, it wasn't hard. On the way home, I listened to my body. I was not hungry. I decided that it's about time that I took control of my emotions and my body.

The cycle has ended.

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EVER-HOPEFUL 5/19/2013 9:27AM

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MYTHMYTH 4/23/2013 8:49PM

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APACHESTEVE 4/23/2013 10:36AM

    Congrats, and I bet you look great in your sleeveless tops. This was a perfect blog for me to read today. I'm back on track with food and journaling but need a little push to get me back to exercise. Have a super day and I hope your Spin class went well. Oh, and I'm a Virgo-guy!

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BSHOSH 4/23/2013 7:45AM

    Congratulations on this new day and new cycle! You can do it!

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    emoticon on stopping the cycle and loving your body 'now' emoticon

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MONA791 4/23/2013 2:49AM

    It's great that you accept yourself at last. emoticon

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    Small steps sometimes. That's all it is. Celebrate the healthy choices and don't let the unhealthy ones derail another day.

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PLATINUM755 4/22/2013 10:53PM

    Love and acceptance emoticon Sport those sleeveless tops...and don't beat yourself up for the few extra calories today. One day won't ruin your week, just stay focused on the goal and it will come! emoticon emoticon

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BEFIT016 4/22/2013 10:45PM

    A GREAT day! emoticon

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PATRICIAAK 4/22/2013 10:40PM

    great plan

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