Monday, April 22, 2013
So now it's been close to 2mo & 1wk of my insomnia battle. I have had minor victories. Counting them all. As of late I have been getting more sleep. Last night however was a setback. Let me explain why. I went to visit a friend in downtown Phx. For those that don't know, if you have to go to downtown Phx but don't have a lot of money, go on the weekends. Parking at the meters is free on the weekends (per an officer that was going by me as I parked). So I took advantage of this free parking as I had to wait til today to have $ for anything. Since my friend was finishing up their shift at work, I decided to wait in my car since I'm still not over the joy of having a car of my own. This was around 5:30pm. I can only deduct that while sitting in my car I look like a manequin or I'm invisible (which is hard for someone my size to be). Let me explain why. I was sitting in my car with the driver's door slightly open for a breeze to run through the car so I didn't have to turn it on & waste gas, not knowing how long my friend would be. While sitting there looking up pictures on my phone for my collection (for those of you that don't know me...I LOVE pictures. Taking them myself mostly) I happened to glance up & see a black guy walking by on the sidewalk. Since I'm always aware of my surroundings (for safety), he caught my attention & I started to notate details about him, if it ever came to me needing to use it. This guy was late 40's- early 50's, 5'7, emaciated (meaning he looked like he had been starved), and he also looked like he was carrying a heavy weight with the way that his body slouched over. While observing this guy and making mental notes, he started pulling on something that was attached to a barbed wire fence across the sidewalk from my car. Now focusing on what he was pulling on, I noticed that it was a metal wire, extremely thin, but extremely strong. At this point the guy had apparently no clue that I existed. He started to take the wire and wrap it around his neck in the form of a noose. He turned around while doing this. It was at this time that he noticed me and made eye contact with me for a good 2 mins before releasing the wire and starting to walk off. I immediately called the police because, having been in the mindset of suicide I wouldn't wish it on anyone, I was concerned for him even though I don't know him. The police were there in less than 2 mins in force. As soon as he saw the first police cruiser he ducked down an alley and disappeared. I helped the police try to track him down. After an hour of walking all over downtown Phx looking for him to see if he was ok, the police and I gave up. I started to walk back to my car to see if my friend was off work. By now it was getting close to 7pm. I was stopped on the way to my car by the police that I was just helping. They told me that they needed to look over the area before I could go near my car. By this time my friend was off work and trying to find me cause she could see my car but couldn't find me anywhere. I failed to mention that during the "manhunt" I wasn't responding to texts or calls, which may have made things a little worse. I instantly called my friend and had her meet me down the street until I could get to my car. It wasn't until around 7:45pm that I was finally able to get to my car and leave. I'm not sure whether to take yesterday as a sign that I shouldn't try to help people like that. What does everyone think, I need a little input on this one. I will say last night I got 4hrs of sleep due to worrying about him. Also, if any of you pray, please keep him ni prayers. He's going through a dark place on his way to light. Pray he's strong enough to fight for the light and joy of continuing his story.