Monday, April 22, 2013
So, my old job took half of my paycheck back from me.
I'm still fighting with them.
And then I did my finances, paid bills, looked toward the future...and cried. Student loans, rent, utilities...I'm so strapped, I've got $30 left to me each month, and that's without taking food into account...and my dad is still covering my car insurance, health insurance (actually, that's at no cost to him because my brother is already on it, so we both agreed that it just made sense), and phone bill. Life terrifies me.
I re-applied for food stamps, and felt about an inch tall...I shouldn't, but it was like a point of pride that just...hurt. I applied in December while working part-time at Target and unable to find full-time work, and I felt bad about it then...but it was only going to be for a couple months, just until I got a better job, got a handle on things...
My loan payments were the straw that broke this camel's back. I'm so stressed, so worried, afraid that an extra dollar spent anywhere will throw me off completely. Thank god next month is a 3-paycheck month!!
So, I've been researching healthy recipes--not just for me. Bf is still working the low-carb diet (and loving it, the boogerface), and trying to make that work on the cheap is...trying. lol