Monday, April 22, 2013
Thursday, the Chicagoland area got over 9inches of rainfall over night. After spending 2 hours trying to get to work I gave up and went home which took another hour to find a way back. There were abandoned cars with water up to their rear view mirrors and roads barricaded closed right and left. I felt super stressed cause I needed the money and most of the other employees were able to make it there through public transportation from Chicago or they lived nearby. I didnít know what to do and was rather bored because any outside errands were impossible. I felt like I had just wasted 3 hours of my day and gas for nothing.
Friday, I trekked out a different way to work, which much to my shock was also closed. I tried Euclid, Kensington, Wolf, Golf, Central, and Rand. Finally I went all the way north to go east, and then all the way south to Chicago. Ridiculous, I was late and wasted more than an hour and a half in the car once again. I need the hours. I ate my first half lunch at 10:30a and about 11am my daycare called. My son was being so aggressive that I had to get him before he hurt any other children. He had 3 incident reports by 11am and had kicked a girl in the throat, all without provocation or a reason. I left work in tears, and spent an hour and a half getting to the daycare. I picked him up and my infant and brought them home. I was so stressed out because he doesnít even have a reason for what he did, itís like he wanted to be cruel. I think I ate at least a whole roll of Oreos after I sent him to his room. There was nothing but bad news that day. My car ran out of gas because I was going in constant circles and I didnít know where to go. Then I vacuumed up the lost back of my babyís earring (which cost $40 to replace) and I saw it happen. I tried to find it and ended up dumping all the dirt and dust all over myself and the floor and still didnít find it. Then the DirecTV supervisor came and I was like ďyey, finally at least we can get tvĒ but Ö no.. of course not. He said it wasnít possible to install it on our house cause our association was too strict. By the time dinner came around I was absolutely nuts! My son refused to do anything even though he was grounded and my daughter was destroying my house but was too little to understand ďnoĒ. The rest of the weekend was just as bad.
Iím back up to 210lbs and I feel so very ashamed. How could I just lose control like that. I wanted to get too 199lbs by April 28th.. but thatís like 6 days and thatís a tall order to lose 11lbs in less than a week. I feel so crushed and defeated. Even if I try now it might not help. I need the strength to continue and work real hard to achieving this goal or even close to.