Day 111 - Frustrated
Monday, April 22, 2013
There are times when I just donít understand the scale. As of last Thursday I had lost 0.8 pound for the week. On Saturday, my official weigh in day, I was up 1.2 pounds for the week. I just donít get it, but I recorded the weight gain. Iím done making excuses for the scale, I just record what it says. Iím sure it will all work itself out somehow. Hard not to get frustrated by the numbers though.
My week was OK. We had a cold weekend including snow on Friday afternoon and Saturday (the first soccer game of the spring season). Sunday was a very bad eating day. I ended up in a store that I donít go to very often. In addition to the items on my list, I also bought donuts. And ate almost all of them. Bad. Very bad. Not just all of the calories, but I didnít need to know they had really good donuts available so near and the store is open 24 hours a day. This is going to be a challenge!
I am starting to get pretty stressed about all the stuff that needs to get done around the house. My husband is a stay at home dad. He also has really bad knees and a bad back. He has severe sleep apnea and depression. He always manages to fix meals for the kids, get dinner done, get the kids to their activities, do dishes, run some errands, and help with bedtime. Often times, particularly the last two weeks, he doesnít get anything else done. That leaves all of the laundry, cleaning, vacuuming, homework, bills, etc. for me to do. I am also commuting one hour each way and working a job that is a lot of hours/stress (which is expected of one that pays enough that we can live on one salary).
I realized this weekend that when the weather gets warm, me doing all of the chores is going to get even worse. There will be more to do and I will have less time to get it done. Not only am I frustrated with the work, but I feel like Iím missing out on time with the kids (while theyíre still young enough to spend time with their mom).
One of my goals in April was to be happy. I have to say Iím not there right now.
April goals Ė yesterdayís tracking
1. Log into SP, do SparkCoach Ė logged in, no SP C
2. Maintain streaks Ė didnít eat within calories Sun.
3. Burn 400 Calories/day: > 150
4. 10,000 steps/ day: > 9500
5. 5k program (S Ė T Ė T): didnít do, rescheduled for tonight
6. 100 pushup program (M Ė W Ė F/S) n/a
Health Progress YTD
1. Eat within calories streak: 0 days (101 of 111 days this year)
2. Cardio streak: 116 days (111 of 111 days this year)
3. Drink water streak: 102 days (106 of 111 days this year)
4. Wear pedometer and track steps streak 60 days (110 of 111 days this year)
Member Comments About This Blog Post
I had two different weights on the scale today, so I figured the best out of three, which turned into four. Couldn't get the lower weight back no matter how much I tried.
1190 days ago
I really hate the way that stores park those darned doughnuts right in our faces wherever we go. They are by every entrance. In strategic places that everyone seems to have to go.
It sounds like you have way too much responsibility. My hubby was a SAHD too but he did more of the work. I have R.A. and I still manage to do most of the work here.
1191 days ago
Keep your chin up. You truly are doing an amazing job. Running a household and working is tough! I am still trying to figure out how to do it. My hubby was laid off for the last couple of months and was a stay at home dad. When I would arrive home he was exhausted and would pretty much hand the kids over to me and want to be done for the night! Anyway, you will get there and better weather is coming! I keep running out of time for exercise myself and then saying, I will set my alarm for 5 a.m. and do it then, but after waking staying up too late and waking up with my non-sleeping 1 yr old I never do it.
My kids started soccer last weekend too btw! Are you doing soccer through Lansing Parks and Recs?
1192 days ago
I weighed at work...I was up....I weighed at home ....I was the same...I weighed at WW and lost 2 pounds. I am working at NOT being emotionally attached to the scale....my clothes are bigger and I'm moving better.....just keep Sparkin'!!
1192 days ago
You have a lot on your plate. I guess, think of the man in the
same position as you. It's nice that he can be a stay at home
dad AND that he really does do a lot. Just think if he didn't?
We have to be thankful for what we have, do the best we can
and allow ourselves to be happy that we have the family,
and things to do.
I know you can do it. If things need to change, try to make it happen.
we are here for you .. along this journey ....
1192 days ago
You have a lot on your plate. It's hard when you have children and no help with the day to day chores. Especially when you work full time. If you can afford it get someone in to help with the housework. If your kids are old enough have them help with picking up after themselves. Don't worry about the scale. Just try to live as healthy a lifestyle as you can and leave those donuts alone.
1193 days ago
the scale is just like that....do what you know id healthy and don't let the scale rule your moods or your feelings about your self....
you are doing good
1193 days ago
give yourself time, you'll get there. It's hard when you have a family to buy food for and so much going on, but don't let it get you down. Look into the mirror every morning and find one, just one thing to compliment yourself on. Then once you mention it, smile to yourself, or better yet, when you're out smile to someone else, a child is the best because they will smile back, and that means you've started a "chain" of smiles that will move across the country. One person smiles to another, that person smiles to someone, those people smile, etc. I think it's a great image, and many times, seeing a child or anyone smiling back at you is the BEST!
Have a wonderful day, and remember, you're on the same path as everyone else, we've all stumbled, we've all fallen, but we get ourselves back up and move forward, more determined than ever.
1193 days ago
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