Monday, April 22, 2013
I have been an emotional eater ever since my brother passed away, when I was 14. My family I guess is your typical Ukranian/Polish family, we celebrate, and mourn and whatever else you can think of with food, and lots of it. So I guess it makes sense that I eat when I am sad, when I'm happy or bored or stressed or letting loose, and its becoming a problem. But Its a cycle that I dont know how to break, how do I stop letting the triggers affect me,
Just now as I am siiting in my office working for the day, stressed out by the mounds of paperwork that I need to get through, I think I am hungry, I had my protein shake about 3 hours ago so its time for my snack, and instead of grabbing the instant oatmeal I have in my drawer, what do I do, I go to the vending machine and grab a bag of chips an a chocolate bar.. what the hell was I thinking, I have tracked both items, but now I just took out over 400 calories from my meal plan that would have been alloted to healthy and nutrious foods, and substituted it for something that is not good for me, Why? becuase its what I do, its what I crave when things get tough, or exciting or whatever the emotion I am feeling is..
I blew my meal plan this weekend too, why becuase i was stressing out about the coming week and didnt care, but I have to care, I just dont know how to break free.
How does one find the strength to break through the emotional barriers and stop living to eat, and start eating to live?
I want this cycle to end!