Monday, April 22, 2013
So, I know it isn't Tuesday, but my favorite blogger put it so well. Take it back Tuesdays.
I fight with Rheumatoid Arthritis; for the average Joe or Jane, it sounds like your grandma's arthritis. Well it isn't. It is an autoimmune disorder where your body attacks itself and mostly in the cartlidge around your joints causing arthritis like symptoms of sore joints and deformities. There are many other problems such as flu-like symptoms, depression, swelling of the internal organs, increased risk of heart attacks and cancer. Fun stuff to come to terms with when you are first diagnosed.
Then they throw the side-effects of the medications at you. One of my favorites is prednisone. If anyone has been on prednisone, you understand. I become crazy hungry (ok and slightly irritable). On top of that it has been tax season with no exercise, crazy stress and then the prednisone. I gained 12 pounds over the course of 3 months. I had a doctors appointment coming up right after tax season and I hadn't weighed myself for months. I knew it wasn't going to be pretty (I had a client tell me she had a diet she wanted me to try). The doctor announced that I had gained 12 pounds. I wanted to cry. I felt humiliated and defeated; for many reasons, not just my weight. Life in general I guess.
Then she lectured me on wearing high heals with my condition; as if not wearing high heals is going to solve the constant ache in my feet. I told her "you know, RA has robbed me of so much, I am taking back from it wearing high heals." She looked at me like I was insane and that tsk tsk, that is not medically a good idea. It may not make medical sense, but it sure make sense to my spirit. I'm taking my life back a piece at a time.
I took back wearing heals and you know what, I told her that I didn't want an increase in my meds. My plan was to loose 45 pounds this year. I'm taking my life back. I'm going to play tennis again. I might not be a superstar at it, but my kids will enjoy playing with me. I plan on going to the gym at least 3x a week and riding my exercise bike on the other days. I am done making excuses of prednisone and hurting and just plain feeling sick.
I'm taking my life back starting today and you know what? Next year, I will take my garage back. First things first.