Monday, April 22, 2013
How many times have I said I am starting over? Yes, I know too many. However this time I am doing it a little bit different. I have thought about why I have not succeeded as well as I should have in the past. When I have tried to lose weight and get healthy I want to do it all and do it now. I overwhelm myself with everything you can monitor and count. Monitor what you eat and how much you eat, water you drink, activity levels, steps, and the list goes on and on. I overload my-self with everything I believe is important to monitor. Then there are the groups. There are so many I want to be a part of but I can't keep up with them all. Overload!
I become discouraged if I don't walk the 10,000 steps or what if I do and forget to wear the pedometer to prove I walked the 10,000 steps today. OMG I only drank 7 glasses of water today. Geez! I am beating my-self up over nothing.
Another issue I have is body image. When I look at me I dislike me. Why I don't know. Maybe I remember the me when I put me higher on the list of things to do today. The me I lost along the way before I had kids and was a "married single mom." I did (and still do) try to handle everything for everyone. Maybe the power of the media and what is considered attractive is in my head.
I am not going to be the story you read and are blown away by the amount of weight I have lost. However I am in awe of those who have had many, many pounds to lose and have had the strength and courage it too to do so. I will be thrilled to lose 30 to 50 pounds.
(If I am successful on my new adventure, I will share my motivation with you and pictures)
So back to my topic, I have been religiously tracking my food and water for 5 days now and it's not so bad. I am probably one of the few people in the US that does not have a smart phone but that is on my hopefully get soon list. Then I could use the mobile app SparkPeople has available. Tracking everything would be easier. I am wearing my pedometer mainly as a visual to remind me to move more. (At home I never sit down it's just at work I have a desk job) and not track. well, not yet. Maybe I will be ready next week to start tracking my activity. I am getting comfortable with eating more healthy. Until you log or keep up with what you eat you don't fully understand the caloric impact some foods as well as drinks have.
So as I raise my water glass, here is to having a great day and taking one more step to a healthier me.