Monday, April 22, 2013
I have decided to stop drinking. I used to be able to drink with no problems. Now, it seems that I can have a drink or 2 (fine) or 10. There is no 3-9 for me anymore (not that 9 is a safe amount either). I didn't do anything stupid like drink and drive, but I keep waking up after these binges feeling like crap and feeling like an idiot because I don't have 100% of my memories from the night before. This doesn't happen weekly or even monthly, but I hate it. Well, maybe it is once a month because it happened in Charleston last month and it happened when we went camping in February...
Part of the problem stems from who I hang out with. Most of my friends "technically" binge drink every weekend. Binge drinking is 5+ drinks in a sitting, and that is the norm for a Saturday night with my group of friends. I used to think it was an age thing (all in our 20s), but I've noticed that it's not normal nor is it healthy. From what I see in my spark friend's trackers, no one else regularly drinks 5 drinks in a night, let alone 10! I don't want that to be my normal weekend behavior.
I haven't decided if/when I will drink again, but I think taking an indefinite hiatus is a good thing. I think it will be hard initially because our friends drink when they get together, but I think it will eventually be okay. I talked to J about it and he said he noticed something had changed (embarrassing to hear...). He is on board and supportive of whatever I decide.