Sunday, April 21, 2013
Last night I was lying in bed thinking about the past few days, weeks etc.... how up and down it's been and how I've started being too reactive - giving in to junk foods, not making time to work out and just letting the days slide by without looking after me.
So i had a good talk with myself and decided that I need a little structure. I need to get into the driver's seat and get control of this ride of life that I am on. Sitting in the back row just ain't doing it for me.
I feel better already today and its' early afternoon. Making up my mind to get on course again and having some resolve about it is what is helping. I had fruit for breakfast and didn't give in to the sausage and eggs that hubby was eating - just made enough for him. Pass for me. Little steps.
Now I"m going to go make a salad with a bit of beans for protein. One healthy meal at a time.
Maybe I needed that blow out to get me back on track. I've had my temper tantrum now I'm calming down. Last year when I was doing the eat to live I lost 30 lbs. So I've put 10 back on - now its time to get serious again. Enough with the stop and start. I need to accept that I can't eat like I've been eating and lose weight. Why did I stop? Who knows - maybe I got scared of being thin again.
I have to make an effort at this. I have to feel how un - normal it feels to eat differently. When I was lying in bed last night I was thinking about how good my body felt when I was eating veggies fruit and beans as my base. I need to get back there. I need to eat to live instead of living to eat. Feeling light and energetic needs to be my normal instead of bloated and sluggish......
Okay. ONe meal at at time. One day at a time. I'm working at this. Eat to live gives me structure and helps me eat on track. And I know it works for me. Now I have to believe in me - that I'm worth it. That I deserve to be healthy and fit again.