Sunday, April 21, 2013
Today is Sunday and it is a day where I am looking back on the last week and discovering the things that I had a problem with and the things that I have done right.
One thing is the when it looked like I had gained 3 lbs, I freaked out. The only good thing that I can see was that I did not give up. The same day that the weight gain was noticed I did not tell myself "oh heck with it, it is a lost cause." I have always in the past given up with any set back. So this was a positive.
I have also learned that a small cookie occasionally will not kill you if you plan for it, but 5 cookies will put the weight back on. They will also do a number on your self control and esteem (at least they do on mine).
I am still working on the ideal that food is not my enemy. I am working out that food is there for me to enjoy and for energy. Food is not there to hug me, love me, and make me feel better. God, my family, and my friends are there for that.
I am learning to lean on God more, and less on the food that is provided.
I am learning that is does not matter if I am the only fat person at the gym, I am there trying to become healthy and that is all that matters.
Last but not least, I am learning to love myself enough to treat myself right.
Well, I am looking forward for next week and what the week brings.