Sunday, April 21, 2013
Well it was more of the same old thing this week and no good excuses. Granted, I have family stuff going on that is just dragging me down and whatnot, I shouldn't use their problems as an excuse for me not doing what I need to do for me. So I don't know. Feeling really down today. I've had a rough week and it hasn't gotten better. And it didn't help that the nurse practitioner that I met on Monday cuz my usual doctor quit to work somewhere else made me get on a scale. Tell me who gets on a scale in a psychiatrist's office? And then proceeded to call me fat and warn me yet again about diabetes and other things that I know about. I'm telling you that I'm not going back. I'm not spending money to go in just to be called fat and made fun of and not get the treatment I need. I'm going to wean myself off the meds. I think they are part of why I'm constantly tired and not wanting to do anything. Granted, I've always been bad, but lately I've been worse. Why spend the money on something I don't want to be on that's not helping and I have no doc who cares enough to help and just wants to make fun of how I look. And in case you were wondering, yes she's the skinny looks down her nose at you type. Anyway, that's enough of my griping. To sum the week up, I stayed in my nutrition ranges zero times this last week, I only worked out twice which is better than nothing, I know, and I'm up a pound for the week. Not bad considering my choices, but I'm hoping that somehow I'll get back in control of myself and get back to being on track for my goals. Happy sparking, friends.