Sunday, April 21, 2013
There are only 4 weeks left for this challenge. I am down 41 pound. And that is really amazing. Last week, I lost 1.5 pound and that put me in the back of the competition. That means that there is no way I can win the trip to New York now. I was really depressed all week but since I couldn't medicate with food I had to actually analyse the situation and find the "silver lining" in this situation. So better health ( I was able to cut my blood pressure in half and I am slowly weaning myself from it and that has been a goal of mine for the longest time). Clothes fit much, much better. But the fact that I can actually process difficulties and step back without food, is a giant victory. I really hope that I am on the right path for the rest of my life.
I have to say tough that my mind is really messed up because when I look at myself in the mirror I cannot see the weight loss. I still see me as a big obese woman. I guess I am going to have to work on that alot.
So I continue on my way, on that challenge even tough it is impossible for me to win now. The other contestants are dropping weight at an average of 3 to 5 pounds a week. I guess that because I am 52 and premenopausal, my body just can't take it. Anyway a loss is a loss and I am very grateful for that.
Have a beautiful sunny day beautiful ladies.