I weighed in this AM and I am officially one pound under my goal weight that I originally stated in October of 2011. The pathway to this weight took me 1.5 years to travel. Lots of ups and lots of downs. Lots of giving up and lots of pushing forward.
I experienced a long, frustrating plateau. I have binged and I have starved myself. I have worked out 2+ hours a day and I have taken weeks (months) off. I think I have run the gamut with this entire journey. I have officially lost 21 lbs as of today. I am going to take my measurements and get body fat % taken as well just to hopefully add some sweetness to the pot. I am in clothes I could not wear last summer. In fact, they are falling off of me now. It's a lovely problem to have, but I have nothing to wear in my closet at all that doesn't have saggy butt and gaping waist.
I don't have all the answers as to how this happened. I know a lot of it came from hard work, perseverance, sweat, and tears.
Working out, making better food choices, family drama, active hobbies, and dampening down the OCD rigid schedule I always thought I needed...it all came together, finally.
I still want to firm it all up now. I know, I know....are we EVER satisfied?? But I do NOT want to lose any more weight. My face is looking sunken and the one major downfall to being thin, is also looking wrinkly!!! For the first time in a very long time, I am not trying to lose weight!! It's such an odd concept. I am here. I arrived.
Now to maintain, I guess. Just keep doing what I'm doing while trying not to lose any more. I think Strength Training is in order!!!
Running is going really, really well for me right now. I attribute most of it to finding the secret to my posture. All this time, I had been using certain muscles to pull back my shoulder blades while running, and one day, I accidentally straightened my back from the MIDDLE (instead of the shoulders) and it magically made a huge difference. The shoulders automatically followed. I no longer have a crazy rotating swing (maybe just a tiny one..). I am still stopping and walking when heart rate goes over max (175) and yet I have still increased my pace time to 10:30(ish) more often. I ran 7.5 miles the other day and my first several miles were 10:30 but by the end, I was back at a 12. LOL. Oh, well. I'm working on it!
I also attribute a huge part of my success to Sparkpeople and my friends here. I love Spark, and all of the tools they provide. I love logging my fitness (and food..when I am in the groove). I love all of their helpful articles and features. And I just LOVE my Sparkfriends!! So much support from people who understand exactly what I have been going through. We are all on a journey of fitness and health and I believe it does take a village to succeed.
Thank you for all of your support.
I am not quitting Spark. No way. I'm still here. Logging and reading.
I did it! I finally did it!!