Ah, the first 50 pounds were almost a breeze, and then came the bumps in the road.
On some levels, I’m not sure what happened, but in other ways, it’s not much of a mystery.
I was probably due for my first rough patch anyway, since it’s hard to think that I could possibly go about reaching my big goal of losing a total of 232 pounds without at least a few bumps in the road.
It’s a lot of weight to lose. My body at one point went into some crazy deprivation mode when my eating started to lose it’s regularity. I was already at a deficit, and then I added to it, if only for a short while, and then everything just unraveled from there.
I was hungry. Oh so hungry.
Then my sleep schedule fell out of wack and I gained at least one extra sleeping disorder on top of all the sleeping disorders I already had.
Lovely. So now I have Restless Leg Syndrome (RLS) on top of everything else. Goodie.
It wasn’t pretty, me going about practically a sleepless insomniac with RLS.
I wasn’t Sparking, because I didn’t have much energy to have much Spark and I wasn’t shopping regularly and when I did, I’d be too tired to cook.
Exercise? Well, I didn’t do much of that either. I did do some, but no where near where I was before.
I was so tired, it was a wonder that I didn’t sometimes fall asleep right where I stood sometimes. In fact, sometimes even still, the short walk to my bedroom after I wind down for the night seems a little too much.
I have to convince myself I won’t fall asleep enroute and wake up after snoring a while on the kitchen floor.
And then to top off all that sleepiness, I’ve been busy, busy, busy.
But that’s the story of my life anyway it seems. It was before, but somehow without the sleep, I lost control.
So I think my biggest challenge now will be to get enough sleep.
I’ve been doing a little better, but not enough.
My life, and the chaos sleeplessness created, is gradually getting back into place.
And in the meantime, I hope my Spark will grow again and my floundering will stop.
Anyway, here’s to trying to get back on the weight-loss wagon. …