Saturday, April 20, 2013
Here I am sitting in my recliner this fine Saturday afternoon watching the snow storm. I wonder out loud to my self in this empty-ish house if spring will ever come. It is after all the 20th day of April.
I am though not with out plans for my self.
1) Find a positive way to voice the changes I want to make in my lifestyle. Not so much I am going to do this but I don't like it and it takes too much time, but more I am fortunate that I am well enough/strong enough/able enough to do this I have lots of time.
2)I am going to entertain the notion that I may have been WRONG in my opinions and out look about diet and exercise
3)I am going to quit looking for instant gratification for my efforts. My effort alone are gratification enough.
4) I will give up my all or nothing attitude. A step back is a step back and not a failure.
5)I will try something new and stick with it for the whole commitment--bikini challenge here I come.
6)I will quit hiding behind humour and allow myself to feel and express real emotion.
7)I will fall out of love with my burdens, shame and hurts and fall in love with forgiveness for myself and others.
8)I will let go of my judgments of others as it is just a manifestation of a judgement of myself. I will try acceptance. I will learn how to do it. I can do anything.
9) I am not less than because I am heavy. I am not heavy. I am simply myself. As I am, I am awesome.
10)I will measure my success by shifting my focus from "work" that needs to be done and negative self assessments about appearance, efforts and progress
and focus instead on the spring in my step, the smile on my face and my feeling of well being.
Also I am going to clean my house.