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Looking for 199

Saturday, April 20, 2013

Hey, Did you see it? I still can't seem to find it, but I know it's in there. Somewhere. I tell my bulges, settle down, or rather, get moving. Enough is enough. I try to look glamorous with the bulges poking out and making fun of me.

Funny. I used to think I was heavy when I weighed 114 (way back when I was 12, and my mom said I was getting fat.) After being the skinniest of tiny kids, I hit puberty, and my mom, who was 98 lbs (when she first got married, but 145 when I was 12)and 5 foot 8 gorgeous, of course said to my 4 foot eleven-ness - you are getting fat.

Fast forward, super duper fast through gaining weight about 5 lbs per year (some years) til we get to 2009. Umph. Crash. Burn. 210 lbs.
Augh! Nightmare! Wha' happened? (super fast - death of my mom, gained a step mom, high school, college, boyfriends, breakups, hot fudge sundaes working in an ice cream shop, divorce, heartbreak, new marriage, happy happy happy, back ache, adoption son 1, pregnancy son 2, moves all over the country, midlife Master's degree, husband lots of illness and nearly dies more than three times, back injury, ) Then I worked 10 minutes at a time, daily, and got my metabolism rocking, and lost about 30 lbs.

Then - all the surgeries in 2011 - brought me from 179 to 210.
Finally dropped down to about 205 last month.
Here I is. Down to about 204 or 205 depending on the day.
I am working at my 10 minute per day start up, and trying to get my metabolism and motivation going. I did it between 2009 and 2010, and must make it happen now. Age 57 is not a stop sign. It is a green light, with flashers telling me to go on, take those baby steps and make it happen.

One day soon I will break that barrier, and find 199, and then the rest will follow. You with me?
I am off! Time to walk it, and not just talk it.

Have a peaceful day.
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    My mom took me to the MD who put me on amphetamines at age 14, hence my 15 year addiction to diet pills, the prescription kind. I quit finally at age 30. Haven't touched them since. So much damage a mom can cause. I don't think they do it intentionally, I like to think they are doing their best with what they know at the time. My mom didn't know a lot, and back then they didn't look at addiction problems.

    Yes, life can sure fire the water balloons at you to dampen your spirits. But you seem to keep a positive can do attitude. I am sure 199 is just around the bend for you!! Keep on doing what you are doing. It has been working for you. YAY!!
    1698 days ago
    You know what I think looking at this and many other stories here on SP - it seems life's determined to play us some bad balls to see how we are handling them. I wish you all the best and a happy, happy, happy (fudgeless though:) time. emoticon
    1699 days ago
    I still can't locate 200. So I know I can't help with 199. But I'm sure you'll find it shortly. emoticon
    1700 days ago
  • _LINDA
    Its a shame you had a Mom so focused on weight issues when you were such a tender age (begs the question was the step Mom any better?) Working an ice cream shop -the worst, but not quite as bad as working McDonald's -led to my brother's life long love affair with that restaurant -its the only place he will eat hitting the road and at home! I worked a confectionery, hence my love of chips and slurpees (its a good thing I have nothing like that where I presently live -no temptations to slip back into it.
    Age 57 is just early middle age -you have a long life ahead to get healthy and live the best you can within your limitations due to your injury. The less weight you have and the fitter you are the better you will feel. A prize to shoot for for sure. One you can do. Go for it!
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    1701 days ago
    199 passed through here a few months back; said it was heading in your direction. As long as you're walking, you're sure to catch up with it, and maybe pass it right by, then send it on its way. emoticon
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  • FROSTY99
    One-derland is in your future, just keep taking it one day at a time and it will suddenly appear-like clearing the fog in an early morning drive!
    1701 days ago
    "Time to walk it, and not just talk it." I love this!!


    1701 days ago
    You have a great attitude and I know you can do it. WE can do it!
    1701 days ago
    Great blog, Deborah! Aren't moms vicious sometimes? My mom did the same thing to me. My response? Anorexia.
    You can do it again. You can do it even better! Don't give up. It's not how many times we fall but how many times we get back up that matters. emoticon
    1701 days ago
    You made me laugh. I was feeling down but your blog picked me up. Thanks I needed that. (smile) emoticon
    1701 days ago
  • SCOOTER4263
    Good for you! "Onederland" is right around the corner!

    I was remarking to a friend the other day that my goal weight is now what my panic weight was forty years ago. Life is certainly odd at times.

    1701 days ago
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