Saturday, April 20, 2013
OH it's been a rough week. Ups and downs. And my eating has followed suit. What I have learned from my mini blowouts ( the whole box of mini eclairs, a family size bag of chips - - ok not on the same day but you get my drift)...is they aren't worth it.
I felt like crap after the mini eclair episode - why I even bought them ... well lets not go there... feeling like I"m owed something... like I deserve a treat - - but let's face it = they are evil and should not come into my cart let alone my house! Somethings I just don't have the control over yet.
Last night I got off to a bad start when I agreed to A & W for dinner on the way to the lake... burgers and fries... boy did it make me feel sluggish.... but did I stop at that???? NO siree Bob! A few hours later I was into the bag of potato chips that I brought for company tonight.... disgusting.
So now I feel like crap for eating a bunch of crap. The good is I am craving water today - my body trying to get back into balance is what I guess it is....The Eat to Live program sure is calling my name today. I am channelling the feeling of fresh fruit, fresh veggies and beans in my belly. Lots of water... crisp cool lemony water..... And I have salad stuff out here at the cabin - so today I will eat better...
This April is like my October was - change of seasons - changing reasons.... wanting to look better one minute and feeling overwhelmed with frustration the next at not being there or not feeling like I can get there.
Logically I know I have to get back into gear - firing all pistons at the same time ....balanced food, a good dose of cardio and strength exercise, 8 glasses of water, 8 hrs sleep.... the top 4... every day...is what my grown up body needs. The child in me is cranky with winter weather still holding me hostage... snow on the ground - temps in the minus range - it is enough already!
Today I will go walking. I will drink my water. I got my sleep. I will start the Eat to Live program to get my body back into balance because that is one thing I know makes me feel really good. Get the toxins out from the processed food I've been consuming this past week.
Emotional eating is my downfall. I am so human. It makes me crazy sometimes that I haven't been able to get better control of this at my advanced age. I know that it is time to bring out the journal and start spilling my emotions onto paper instead of shoving them down my throat. I am being honest with myself and all you readers. It gets me everytime the emotional eating...
So there it is. I know what to do. Now grown up me needs to go do it. The grown up has to look after the 2 year old in me that is screaming for attention. I need to give her positive attention. Feed her, cuddle her and let her burn off the steam in a healthy way. Back to basics....that's where I need to go.