It's been a while since I felt like blogging. Not really sure why, really. Just haven't had much to say. I haven't made huge strides in weight loss, and I haven't been exercising as much as I should be. Let's just say I've been lazy! And in truth, part of it is because I got a new video game: Star Wars The Old Republic. It's an MMO that's free to play. My husband loves that I'm playing something, and he's always trying to help me with quests, which, in all honesty, I find irritating. I quit World of Warcraft years ago because I was sick of dealing with other people. I have very high standards for my own behavior so when other people don't have the same standards for gaming (such as going AFK frequently for extended periods of time or acting like a five year old jerk) so I generally prefer to play solo. Now my husband isn't a jerk, but he is dyslexic so we spend a lot of time running around in the wrong direction because he doesn't read maps well.
So anyway, I've been spending a lot of time playing this game instead of exercising. I've still been eating well. I'm still losing slowly. But I realized something when I posted the pics in my last blog.
(Now before you all go and say "duh, dummy of course you are", just lemme finish, Kanye.)
It's one thing when other people tell you things. But believing it is another story. How I look in photos is finally starting to coincide with how I look to myself in the mirror. It's like a switch has been flipped inside me. It's liberating. It's exhilarating. It's empowering.
I do, however, need to find a new pose! AHTRAP picked up that I've been posing the same way for months, and it's true! Lol.
Now here is my wish: I hope all of you, every single one of you, can feel this feeling. The feeling that you are becoming what you ultimately want to be. I'm not at goal yet...but I no longer feel like I'm going to backslide at any moment. I know how to eat now. How to limit my intake and how to get in freggies. I know I need to move around more than I used to. I know how to eat at a restaurant, and what 4 oz. of meat looks like.
I still have 33 lbs to lose to get to my goal weight, and I'm feeling really good about it.
Bonus: Yesterday I went to Acme during lunch. I probably hit up this Acme twice a week minimum because it's a short walk from work. I bought some grapes and a teeny container of Ben & Jerry's Frozen Greek Yogurt. At the register a friendly cashier I talk to sometimes walked right up to me and said "Are you losing weight? You look great!" It felt so good to hear an almost total stranger notice my weight loss. Especially since I had made such good choices for my snacks that day. I was proud of myself, and rightfully so!
So anyway, this is what's been on my mind lately, other than my rash, which is still improving. I found some information on the web about using salicylic acid in conjunction with the hydrocortisone, and I think it's really made a difference. I have my next doctor's appointment on Monday so we'll see what Dr. Hoffman says.