Saturday, April 20, 2013
First Good News
My brother got engaged last night :)
Second he is FINALLY going to fight his ex wife for child support, so she has to either get a job and pay or JAIL. She left in 07
Bad News=My dad now has my brothers ex wife living with him-(same bro as above)
Saddens me that my Dad is showing my brothers the monster he has always been to me.
It breaks my heart that my dad would chose trash over his own grand children. Same trash who left her kids and never looked back.
The people who do not know my dad is a child molester think he is something special and are shocked he would do this to my brother. The people like me who spent years in foster-care because of him know what a monster he is.
How do you think my nephews are going to feel when they find out their Mom is living with their grandpa?
Their mom that is living 10 minutes away now and makes no effort what so ever to do anything but call them.
Their mom that is staying there and knowing she is keeping the kids and my brother away from our dad
I am truly and fully with my Dad.
I gave him a 2nd chance after high school. I am done.
I forgave him the first time around because I loved my Mom and brothers and wanted them in my life.
Now that he has hurt one of them in such a way I realize he just does not deserve my forgiveness anymore. Well more so he does not deserve to have a relationship with me. I'll keep forgiving him for MY SAKE. AND MY SAKE ALONE but I am done giving him chanches to be a good parent. He does not deserve to know me.
I thank God for allowing my heart to heal from the pain of the hands of my Dad.
Without Gods love I never would have survived this far. But I am blessed.
I am loved.
I have 2 wonderful brothers, 2 wonderful nephews and we are all that we need.
My prayers for my brother finding someone to love him and the kids have been answered by God. Kids have someone to be a mom to them now and be there for them and love them the way they always deserved but never had. Brother has someone.
God really does heal.
Look at me.
I was abused for 15 yrs sexually, physically and mentally by my dad and yet I'm here, was able to forgive both my parents and have a part in the life of them from age 18 until mom died.
I lost my home in 07 to the flood, thrown back into the home of my abuser for 2 months and yet I'm here.
I own my 2nd home, Paid cash for it with the money I got from loss my first one.
I don't drive but I have no need to.
I dont work right now but I have my grandma living with me who I have had sick for years tending to her every health problem while having fibromyalgia and fighting my own demons, trust me this is harder than any job I've worked.
If I can rise above everything the devil has thrown into my life trying to make me miserable,
then anyone can. If I can be a good loving person after all that has went sour. then anyone can.
God is so good.
Thanks be to God for everything.