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The stalker lady reveals herself lol

Saturday, April 20, 2013

* walks in and cautiously looks around * Do you ever have that feeling that someone is watching you ? Your in a crowded room and really zoned out to the people but all the sudden you get self conscious like is my panties showing or oh lord I have a whole in my pants because those hairs on the back neck are standing up with the feeling that someone is watching you . Yea i know it sounds a little paranoid but I have felt this way every day for the last couple of weeks at the gym . I dont usually seek people out at the gym for I am there to work out and not many understand the level of commitment that I have to getting into shape and loosing weight. I go to loose myself in sweat not to become bosom buddies . I know that sounds kinda self righteous but it is the only way I can do it. I will tell you that it is not intentional it is just the way it is.

So when i feel like i am being stared at it really is never racking. I dont bother you and i dont want you to bother me. When this feeling first started i couldnt tell you who was staring but now i have found the culprit lol .. This middle aged African American lady . She appears to be in shape and has a delightful smile.

Yesterday morning at the gym i was half way through the circuit when i had that feeling and instant images through my mind I was able to figure out who she was ... I looked at her and she started laughing ... I thought to myself what is she laughing at ... and then zoned out again to finish the circuit and head to the pool for the next hour ...

I get changed and hit the water ... oh such a relief that first 5 minutes in the water ... it is 94 degrees with jets and omg i needed it ... so i come up from the first lap and there is my little stalker lady scared me to death as i am usually alone in the pool area at this time of day .

She said I wasnt laughing at you ... i said but you were laughing and she started laughing again ... I am completely lost at this point and loosing patience quickly ... I just wont to get done but she has something to say I suppose the eye roll didnt help that either ...

She said I have been watching you since before you got sick .. now I was a little creeped out here ...I hadnt realized it had been that long ... She said I want what you have and i cant figure out how to get it ... I said what do i have that you want ... she sheer damn determination ... she said wait for that look .. when your mind says just stop but in your eyes I can see your heart say no way ... She said I wondered where you disappeared off to now I know you are here in the pool. I said i cant tell you how to find the determination and you cant have mine i need it lol ... Anna is her name she laughed again I said so what were you laughing at .. She because you finally figured out that i was your fitness stalker. I said well now that i know your not a stalker any more she said Look i just want you to know that if you could see you as I see you then you would be amazed ... She said that everyone has story and your story is written in sweat ... I hope I am around to see the end result of that determination .. I said I hope I never loose it so plan on living a long time ... and she laughed and said i will let you get back to your workout and one day lets do coffee lol i said deal ....

I guess what i want everyone to know ... is people sometimes laugh, smile or just stare at you for good reasons .. loose the fat body thoughts it isnt always what we are doing wrong sometimes it really is what we are doing right in this .. So get use to it as you journey on moments just happen along the way .

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  • STR458
    1776 days ago
    Thank you so much for sharing that, this is an amazing story and such a great reminder that we really can drown out other people's good intentions in our own insecurities. And to see yourself through her eyes must have been a nice encouragement too!!!! Keep it up, now you are inspiring me to stick with it and get it done!!!!

    Cheers for you!!
    1785 days ago
    Fantastic story Darlene! Thanks for sharing it with us!
    1788 days ago
    Darlene great story ! You never know who is watching and who you are inspiring Keep up the good work
    1795 days ago

    Comment edited on: 4/21/2013 4:30:24 PM
  • POPSY190
    What a great outcome!
    1795 days ago
    I love this post.

    What an a wonderful connection. You never know who you are inspiring, when or why, as you go about doing what is important to you do you? Just goes to show you that every one is helping to make another person's life better.

    Thank you so much for sharing this uplifting message.


    1796 days ago
    like this,thank God she finally talked you,you would have been so bothered!
    1796 days ago
  • JACKIE542
    Loved your story, glad she was a good stalker, emoticon
    1796 days ago
    I loved your blog. What a wonderful story. Thank you for sharing
    1796 days ago
  • COOKIE_AT_51
    What an interesting interaction! emoticon

    You know what Tink my emoticon ... your dedication and determination show through here on your spark page too!

    I promise not to "stalk ya" though ... emoticon

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    1796 days ago
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