I say to you, love your enemies, bless them that curse you, and pray for them which despitefully use you and persecute you Matthew 5:44 I have a sore spot. I’d share it with everyone, but honestly it is an area God is still working on me in, and I have not received the victory yet, so the timing would be bad. When I do, and feel confident that God has changed my heart, I probably will share because I like letting people know of the glorious works God has done in me.
In the meantime, this is what I will share. The above scripture is handwritten on a piece of copy paper taped to a locked cabinet in John and I’s bedroom. I like to think of our room as the inner sanctuary of our home. There I can relax best, be myself best, enjoy the most life has to offer, storm the gates of heaven, and let God’s joy, peace and love overwhelm me. In my trailer, this room used to be my small bathroom in the front of the home. For the last seven years, it’s been here. I’m here now, watching John sleep, listening to birds chirp and becoming inspired.
I think it is important that we have a prayer closet or in my case a room. A special place we can go that will let us be free to be ourselves without any limitations. One that dissuades any hindrances from a noisy world, a noisier devil, and any and everyone else that seeks to take our attention away from God. This is crucial for me especially when God is working on me about problems that are over my head. Ok, so back to the scripture. I have that particular scripture in my “inner” sanctuary because it seems to be the area the devil likes to keep tripping me up in.
I was praying this morning. If I can, and I usually can because I get up before the girls, I like to pray. I just lie in bed and begin allowing the Lord to minister to me as I relay to him what’s on my heart. This morning I was rehashing some grievances I had against a couple people. I started feeling sorry for myself, and I could literally feel depression try to settle on me. Part of the time I think this is because I am such a deep thinker, so melancholic that I am predisposed to just have to shake that stuff off a lot of mornings, but this was different.
I felt like God said to my heart, “You know those couple of people you have a problem with?” I said, “Yes, of course.” He said, “Well, why don’t you look at it like this? Why don’t you imagine that it is a cross to bear for now? That if you weren’t thinking about those people and the hurt and pain they’ve caused you, you wouldn’t be thinking about them at all!” I said, “True” (because I have been so hurt by these few that I get on pins and needles even being around them so if I had my way I’d never, ever think about them) He then said, “What if I allowed this to happen not only teach you to pray for your enemies, which I certainly want you to do, but also because you may be the only one praying for that person? Your petitions for his/her security, encouragement, protection, and even salvation may be the very reason that moves me to act on his/her behalf.” I had never looked at it like that before.
It seems like I will get to praying for someone and then remember, get to forgiving and forgetting, then it pops back up out of a filing cabinet (which is why I updated my filing cabinet which I shared in another blog earlier this week!), yes, the devil’s shenanigans never cease to amaze me, but I am so thankful for the one who lives inside of us! I don’t know if there will ever be reconciliation for these few who have wounded me. I want that because I don’t like having any enemies, but I know the Bible says to live at peace with everyone “as best you can” so I keep in mind it’s not always possible, even God says so.
However, I am finding it easier to pray for those I am not that fond of. I am realizing that a prayer of a righteous man does indeed availeth much, and that God is listening with great interest when I come to him with requests on their behalf. It helps me to stay motivated to pray for them if my prayers mean they will not be lost to hell or have to suffer eternally apart from a God I know full well is so kind and so full of love. Yes, I don’t like having an enemies, people who despitefully persecute me, but I am not going to let that stop me from being myself, and I am not going to let it stop me from bum rushing the gates of heaven on that person’s behalf because honestly, these folks are so rotten and mean sometimes, I could quite possibly be the ONLY person praying for him/her.
So if there is a special someone in your life that just grates on you and grates on you all the time, remember that deep within that person is tucked a living spirit. A spirit that is either dead or alive unto God, a spirit that is causing so much pain because it is in so much pain and that if you or I would get busy praying for that person, who knows the miracle that God may cause in his/her life! And then wouldn’t that make our lives all the more pleasant, all the more richer! Like I said, I’m still working on this, but I am glad that the Lord expounded on the reason why he wants me to do it a little more, in fact, I think I’ll get busy right now in these last moments before my day officially begins, and pray for those who mistreat me. Have a very blessed and hopeful weekend in Jesus name. So be it!
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