Two minds about losing weight
Saturday, April 20, 2013
I'm doing Eat to Live which causes me to lose more weight. It's a vegan diet with lots of fruit, vegetables and beans. I like that the number on the scale is falling, but I know I shouldn't. I've bought more clothes at this size than another size on the way down. A size 2 is rather small and hard enough to find. Size 0 would be harder to find, but it's not about clothing size.
Anyway, my BMI is fine. I feel great. I need to find a way to maintain my weight and keep away from the foods that make me feel bad. I know that maintenance is a balancing act. I have to stop wanting to get thinner. I like the feeling in my body as I get smaller. I haven't been this small since I was a teen. BMI wise I can lose twelve pounds before reaching the underweight class.
I don't think I should lose weight most of the time. However, I don't eat enough to maintain and I love working out. I'm not going to cut back on my exercise so I need to eat more. I have to stop wanting the scale to show lower numbers. One sixteen the latest on the gym scale is low enough.
Last night, I made myself eat a big bowl of granola to get more carbohydrates. It made me reach my calorie range, but it wasn't a food permitted on Eat to Live. I might have to drop doing Eat to Live and just continue with eating lots of fruits and vegetables anyway. I think what will work for me is using the concepts of Eat to Live and eating more carbohydrates since most nuts and seeds don't agree with me.
I know that I can't stress out about losing more weight especially when I'm at two minds about it. I have to eat more to not lose weight, but part of me likes losing weight. Sometimes, I think I'll lose weight for another five weeks or so. Then, other times, the thought scares me.