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Too much in my head.

Saturday, April 20, 2013

Well, bad dreams last night. Weird.

I think i have far too much in my head. I need to get some of it out and of course plan.

First, a new very good friend of mine lost her pup after 10 years.

I am going through I am not sure what by sharing and comforting her. It is good but i had to wonder this morning... is this happening for a reason. Is this step one in preparing me for something in the future? It could be years off or maybe it is more of my healing process for my loss of Aspen. The anniversary of her death is coming, May. I will not think on it too much. I will end this thought of recognizing again how incredibly lucky i was to have her and to be there at the time of her passing. And I am happy that she is now with Kanyon. I know they are happy together no matter what they are doing.

OK, part of my dream included the house being a terrible mess, filthy. Maybe I need to take just some time to vacuum and dust to feel better. I am embarrassed to say, I spend little time on the house.

And of course I am lost. This is a reoccurring dream for as long as I can remember. They are not the same dream but I am consistently lost. It was interesting this time I was talking to myself to stay calm i think. I was trying to learn from mistakes maybe and convince myself that I could find my way. Also, my family was in the dream (sister and Mom).

OK - enough of that. Not worth my thoughts.

This weekend, Oh before going there. No word back from the vet, still waiting on Utah's full blood work. Oh and he did get some meds to his upset stomach. His appetite may be a bit more consistent.

The weekend plan.

emoticon I did get access to my coursework including practice tests through the 30th. WOOHOO! If I was smart, I would put this back in high gear and really try to take as many practice tests as possible then take the exam. At least try. I am afraid I am going to put it off and the longer I do that the more knowledge (study material) falls out of my little brain. NOT GOOD. So, maybe I should come up with a solid plan. This defiantly worked in getting through all the course work. OK, I will come up with a plan by the end of teh weekend.

Well, I think these are really the main things. I used my body fat thing once. Not sure how accurate it was. I need to work with the timing and such. They say it makes a huge difference. The readings were 19.1 and BMI 17.4. Oh yes, I was going to compare these. Thanks so much for the reminder. One sec...

Ok this was done through my prior employer (after fasting) 10/5/12.
Reading was 21.6 Body fat and 18.2 BMI. Hum, so my reading may be right. I have lost at least 5 lbs (maybe 8). This feels more right, if that makes any sense.

Oh and I suppose this should be a BIG reminder that I still haven't had my blood sugar levels checked. They were 60. Total cholesterol was 178 at the time. Anyway, TMI.

emoticon Now of course it is time to wog. This will get me aligned. Thanks for listening to my rambling thoughts.

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    I used to have crazy dreams that never made sense. Could be your just going through a period like that. Sorry to hear about your friend's dog. It is so hard when we lose them. Take it easy, and be sure to rest. emoticon
    1615 days ago
    You might be stressed or your dream might be totally random. I've noticed that if I eat certain things before bed (okay, I'll tell you, it's chocolate!) I have bizarre or sometimes upsetting dreams. Anyway, don't read too much into the other commenter said, just breathe. That's fantastic news that you gained access to your coursework through the end of the month! Good luck with the certificate completion and don't be too hard on yourself about housework. We all get a little dust on our mantles from time to time.. it's not a game changer. emoticon
    1615 days ago
    I often dream of my dogs past and present.I always enjoy reading your thoughts .I hope you had a great weekend and had time to wind down!
    1616 days ago
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    1617 days ago
    I seldom even remember what I dream about. Maybe that's a good thing. Hoping that Utah's blood work comes back good.
    1618 days ago
    I'm a project manager myself (passed the PMP 8/2012 what an endeavor) but I usually tell folks to take a deep breath and let it out. You would be surprised at how people immediately feel less stress. Also, not sure if you might consider but I started listening to meditations via youtube. It's something I would not normally do but I spend time in the mornings and evenings and OMG IT'S BEEN LIFE CHANGING. I've been doing this for 3 weeks now and I feel more sense of control (some PM's need to have a sense of control I guess). Minimally, see if you can take a deep breath and let it out...... have a good weekend.
    1618 days ago
    I also enjoyed reading your thoughts. It's good to write everything down sometimes to clear the noise in your brain.

    I will keep good thoughts for your practice tests.

    Happy wogging!

    1618 days ago
    I think you do have too much in your head. emoticon did you ever consider talking to someone who might help you sort things out. I've recently been considering it for my situation. I know that I always say I am strong and must keep going but lately I really feel like I am about to crash and burn.
    It could be your dreams are a manifestation of all the things going on right now.
    Take care. emoticon
    1618 days ago
    I enjoyed reading your thoughts, and I hope that you find some peace today after the disturbing dreams and everything else that is going on. Congratulations on the positive successes, though, and have a terrific weekend!
    1618 days ago
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