Anxiety and panic...

Friday, April 19, 2013

It is getting to the point that I cant go out to eat in busy restaurants or even busy places...tonight I went out to eat with my parents and some friends to a Mexican restaurant, which probably made it worse since I was raped by a Mexican, but my anxiety went way up...the noise and the people walking around behind me really did it to me...I sat there just waiting till we left to get out of there, If we stayed there any longer I probably would have ran out, I just couldn't handle another minute, I was so happy when my dad suggested leaving...I almost ran out...I really hate that feeling and it seems to be getting worse, probably cause i am working on my trauma in therapy right now...

On the positive side right now is I only have a week till I go visit my sister and my niece...I cant wait, I really need this vacation, need to get out of town for a bit, hopefully I don't get this anxious on the flight to California, hopefully the flight isn't very crowded...

gee I really hate feeling the way I have been...I have been so stressed and anxious lately that I got a bit of a cold last weekend, it is much better now almost gone which is good, since I don't want to go see my niece when I am sick...just too much going on, I had a problem with my medicaid and had to get that all straightened out, while I was sitting in the waiting room to see someone about it last Friday, I had a panic attack and that is when I started feeling sick, got a sore throat...luckily it didn't get too bad and it went away quickly, usually they last for a long time...

Anyway, I have just been so stressed and anxious lately it has been tough...sorry I have been so quiet lately, but been trying to calm down and keep from having a complete breakdown, cant afford that right now...sigh...just wanted to check in...I hope all is well with everyone...
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    I'm so sorry you're suffering so much with anxiety and panic. I'm no stranger to them myself, and therapy, a medicine my doctor prescribed for anxiety, and deep breathing have helped a great deal - as does just keeping busy. A big pat on the back to you for being in therapy AND for staying so strong in stressful situations! I wish you all the best; I know what a struggle this is... emoticon
    1646 days ago
    I have been there, my dear friend, the same process due to sexual abuse and rape, and I understand the horrible feeling of panic. I used to be so dysfunctional that I couldn't even check my mail without having a panic attack. What has helped me, among several things, is:

    --one to one therapy
    --12 step groups for sexual abuse and rape; co-dependent anonymous
    --building up my spiritual life
    --having people in my life who love and support me without judging, and no contact with abusive family members for years
    --my hobbies: music, movies, reading, swimming, walking, etc.

    If you want to talk, you can email me privately. Just know that you are not alone and you are not different because you struggle like you do.

    Love, Chelsea ((Hugs))
    Leader of the SP team "Inner Healing - Sexual abuse" emoticon
    1646 days ago
    Take care of yourself. Enjoy your visit to see your sister and your niece.

    1647 days ago
  • FLYER99
    I've been bothered by this also over the past years, and there are still some things I am working on. One is that I can't stand being among large crowds. Some therapy really helped me. Hang in there. It will get better, give it some time. God Bless! Bob.
    1647 days ago
    I am glad you are getting therapy. It's great that you have a chance to get away for awhile. Sounds like you need and deserve it.
    1647 days ago
    Hi Monika, I hope that you are able to go to your sisters and relax. I am so glad that you are having therapy and hope that you will continue. I really believe that there are more good people in the world than bad and hope that one day you will realize this also. Please keep pushing to get better, you deserve to have a life and not have to hide away from the world. emoticon
    1647 days ago
  • ANYVAR54
    May God give you His blessings and bring you peace.
    I was meditating on Psalm 34 today. Might I suggest that you go read it? It might help.
    Hugs, Ravyna
    1647 days ago
    I saw your blog and wanted to comment. I know a lot of people who have anxiety and/or panic attacks. It is not something in which anyone wants to live. I just pray that you get to feeling better. I'm glad to hear that you are in therapy. Give yourself time, only time will heal the pain you're going through.

    God's blessings to you! emoticon
    1648 days ago
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