Friday, April 19, 2013
So I'm writing my second entry here, that is a small victory! I am not giving up, even though I have not tracked in a few days, but I am not giving up, I will start again tomorrow. I figured I would write a little bit here about what has been going on lately. I had gotten through last semester with an A- and a B-, but this semester I had a mental breakdown, so I had to drop the classes I was taking, I dropped my classes about two weeks ago and have yet to figure out what I want to do with myself. I plan on going back to school in the fall, but I need a break right now.
I was the one who found my dad dead in his bed when he did not wake up, around seven months ago, and I developed PTSD from that. I wasn't sure I wanted to write about it online in public like this, but I figure it is better to get it all out and be honest. I need to heal and get healthy, and blogging might be part of that process. it was a complete surprise, it was a heart arrhythmia, nothing could be done. That is all that I can write about that now.
I need to start looking forward now and try and figure out what I want to do with my life. My priorities are my family and friends. I am going to focus on my business and try and sell my jewelry and make more stuff. I am taking it day by day, but I really need to start looking forward and making plans for my time. Lately I have had a hard time concentrating and focusing my thoughts, it is really frusterating for me. I think I need help, but I don't know what to do.
On another note I pre-ordered the new spark-people book and plan on following that program when I get it, so what I am doing now is preparing for when that book comes out, making small changes in my attitude, which is the most important thing.
Sorry if this post did not make much sense, my next one will make more sense, hopefully.