Happy Birthday - I love you.
Friday, April 19, 2013
First of all, let me start this by saying I'm sorry. This is not an easy post for me. But I have to get this out there. I can't keep it in. Hit the back arrow on your browser now so not to get sucked into my sadness.
21 years ago today should have been one of the happiest days of my life. But it wasn't. 21 years ago today actually ended up being the saddest day I have known in my life. You see, 21 years ago today my daughter, Clarissa Skye was born. I don't have a birth certificate. They gave me a death certificate. They say she was never born. Instead she died before I got to see her breath her first breaths. She died moments before seeing her mother. Moments before I could hold her.
I know we tend to say if only we had a few more moments. I wish I was given those few moments. I would hold her and love her. And she would know just how much she was loved.
Today, take the moments you have and hold those that matter to you the most. Show them you love them. Don't let those moments pass. Embrace them.
And if you are reading this, there is a reason why. I have chosen to allow you into my life enough so know that you too are a part of my life - and I care.