Auguste Renoir: Luncheon of the Boating Party
Source Phillips Collections, Washington
Iím having dinner with an old friend tonight and Iím really looking forward to it. I canít describe how different this is for me since when I was in the grasp of the sugar-salt-fat triad I went out to eat more often but it was not the company I sought, it was the fix. When I look back on it, it frightens me. In fact, most of my go-to-dinner pals from that era donít invite me out much anymore. I donít get down with them like I used to.
I experienced a transformation. I decided for a treat for losing 40+ pounds, I was going to go and get professionally fitted for a bra at a lingerie shop. I now own lingerie made in France, which I thought was far beyond my reach. Little did I know, that with proper guidance, I could wear this. I canít tell you what a difference this is making for me. Not only has my appearance improved 100% with this purchase but my mood is instantly elevated when I see these beautiful things on me.
I have never been big into ďgirlyĒ underwear. It has not been an option for me because of a variety of circumstances. When I was young, the really beautiful lingerie was out of question for me because of the cost. As I moved up in sizes, it wasnít an option. For the last 10 years I suffered from such body shame that I wouldnít have dared to be fitted. So I did the same thing I did with clothes, I measured myself and ordered on the internet.
Today I am the proud owner of some very expensive and worth every cent underthings. At the shop where I made my purchase, they assured me that when I lose more weight, they can alter the garment for fit. So I was sold.
My point is that some things have changed for me. I do miss my old going-to-dinner pals but I see why they donít want to dine with me anymore. Iím not into that same bliss experience.
Iím more focused now on eating a meal that will contribute to my health. I do my homework and choose restaurants where I can eat a healthy meal and plan to I stay within my calorie range.
If you are looking for a treat for yourself and youíre in the same boat as me, I highly recommend getting fitted for lingerie by a professional. So truth in advertising, I called them before I went to be sure that the sizes they carried went up to what I thought would be my band size and they said, oh come on in. Youíre going to be surprised at your size. They were right. I am stunned. I am down 3 sizes smaller than I thought and 6 sizes smaller than where I started with my ill-fitting garment.
"Luncheon of the Boating Party" captures both my thinking about eating out (everyone at the table is engaged with each other) and the women look like my new underwear makes me feel.
Have a great weekend.