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The winding road ...

Friday, April 19, 2013

I continue to be impressed with the amazing variety of journeys we all share on SP. I admire (and occasionally envy ...) the courage and determination of many members. I am so inspired by the stories that never fail to re-mobilize me when I am struggling.

That does not mean all I gotta do is read an inspiring blog and - POOF! - I am back on track perfectly again. By no means does it mean that. What it seems to be doing, as I round the third corner moving toward 2 years here, is that I keep coming back; I renew my determination to NEVER QUIT so that I will be exposed over and over to all this inspiration and wisdom and determination, knowing it will re-Spark me even if I am in the middle of a long "lapse".

I wish sort of lamely that the re-Sparking process wouldn't "wear off". I am proving to be a "lapser", repeating cycles of effort and consistency then cycles of struggling, lapsing and "beating myself up" until I realize I must return to program in order to be at peace with myself.

The difference between these cycles and the way I was before Spark People is that these cycles are shorter; I stay connected to the SP Community and am much less negative about the lapse before I return to a consistent food program.

I know that in order for that re-Sparking to NOT "wear off", I must keep on mobilizing my intent. I really don't know what that is like! I have not been there in my whole life! Got some new territory to seek, new habits to try to shape. Hmmm ...

The road winds ever onward ...

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
IMREITE 4/20/2013 2:25AM

    The road may wind but we keep traveling, learning and expereincing new things along the way enjoying each milestone. it is also where we learn our new habits. the quick path or quick fix approach tends to give us more relapses.

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AUNTB63 4/19/2013 12:56PM

    It is not easy to get beyond being "hard" on ourselves, but we have to remind ourselves that there really is no such thing as perfection on this journey. When I was gone for an extended period of time I realized I just can't do this alone....I need SP tools and all my friends to help me on this journey. Everyone has so much to offer on any given day. Here is where we need to be and here is where we will stay. Have a wonderful weekend and keep on Sparking. emoticon

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ADAPTOR 4/19/2013 12:46PM

    Hello My Friend,
You again show me your inner strength in so many ways. I see in this blog something that gives me pause, and I want to share that thought with you. You are very hard on yourself, you really need to give yourself a break. You are human and all of the steps we take in life are not going to always be pointing forward. The goal is tohave the overall path continue to head forward, even if it sometimes has to wind backwards a little. Second, it is good that you keep coming back for inspiration but don't discount your internal ability to keep you going. I wonder if your times of lapses are the times you don't listen to yourself or times of self doubt. I would say to you - believe in YOU. Afterall, you are such an inspiration to others and share such wisdom, how can you not do the same for yourself? Don't get me wrong, SParking is great, but just remember you too carry that inner spark at all times. Look for it, because I know it is there. emoticon

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CAREYBEARY77 4/19/2013 12:45PM

    Thanks for this reminder! A couple minutes spent reading stuff here, or entering nutrition is enough to keep it closer to the front of my brain. It's not possible to always be obsessed about it, but it is possible to do a little bit every day..... Keep it up! We're all in this together.

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KARENCRANER 4/19/2013 12:32PM

    I have three concrete goals regarding weight loss: 1-30 minutes of aerobic exercise three times a week, 2-eat nutritionally, track intake, and stay within my calorie range, and 3-stay actively sparking, earning at least 100 points daily on average. If I had to grade myself, I'd say I deserve a "B" for meeting goal #1, a "D" for meeting goal #2 (Like I shared last time, I may be eating like a pig, but I'm still tracking and being honest with myself!), and an "A" for meeting goal number 3. I find that goal number 3 is the smartest goal I'd made; it keeps me "in the game."

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