Thursday, April 18, 2013
So after trying to stick to my New Year's Resolution for nearly four months I am fight back where I started--167lbs. I was doing so well for awhile. I only lost a few pounds, but my body fat percentage decreased, and in February, when my boyfriend and I went to his sisters wedding in Florida, his mom even noticed that I was thinner when she helped me zip up a dress she had made for me back in december, and again commented on it while she was fitting me for the dress she made me for the wedding. (Side note: Victoria, my boyfriend's mom, has taken to making me clothing because, between my scoliosis and the fact that I gain weight almost exclusively in my stomach, it is very hard for me to find flattering clothes in stores). It made me feel great that someone noticed my efforts, but it all went downhill after that.
Even though I didn't get to workout much over the days we were in Florida, I wasn't too terrible with my eating. The problem was that after we came back I came down with a cold. Being sick always causes me to just eat crap. And after three weeks of not working out, and two weeks of eating pretty much however I wanted, it was hard to get back into exercising and meal planning.
In March I started trying to get up early, at about 5:30 am, to workout before work, because I've found that I much more like to do that than go after work. I just am not easily motivated to workout after work. Besides, by the time I workout after work and one of us makes dinner, there is just no evening left. Plus, we're planning a move to the other side of the country in two months, and need to start using these evening to pack. And sure, there are days that I just can't make myself get up, but I'm actually doing pretty well at it. I'm actually surprised. I think I'm dong better than I thought I would. Because in the end I know the only person I'm cheating is myself, and that not going will only make me feel worse about myself.
So I've gotten in to working out again. I don't necessarily get all 6 of my workouts in each week, but I've been trying. I also recently got an iphone (my first smartphone) and decided this that I really need to make a more conscious effort to track my food, which I have done everyday this week so far.
I will say though that I am a little bummed. I missed yesterday's workout because I hadn't slept well the night before and was super tired, and also sore. Today I had a half-day at work and was going to make up for it by working out twice, or at least extra hard, but I have had a nagging stomach ache that was actually so bad that I tried to go to Urgent Care. Turns out they can't do anything for abdominal pain and referred me to the ER. I decided not to go because I was feeling slightly better and the ER is far more expensive. I'm still not feeling well, but hope I will tomorrow because I really don't want to go to the ER.
I'm bummed because I wanted to do all of my workouts this week. I need to start losing weight. It's kind of upsetting that I have really been trying to lose weight this whole time, and haven't given up once, but I have miss-stepped a lot. I obviously can't make my goal of weighing 141lbs by the Memorial Day weekend, but I want to at least lose a decent amount of weight by the time we move to Portland. So my new goals are weigh 150 by 6/16/13, 140 by the time I start classes, and 125 by my birthday in December.