I injured myself during yoga class yesterday. I've been taking Zumba, lifting free weights, jogging, doing ea active on my wii - but I injured myself practicing the gentle art of of yoga. Too funny.
It was after Zumba this morning that I decided to throw in the towel, take a break for at least the next 24 hours, and let my body recover.
I am resting on the couch.
During this time of inactivity I have been thinking about some of the things I have been learning during my weight loss/fitness journey and I have decided to list them here.
1 - Losing weight and getting fit is a journey. It's something I've always heard people say and it turns out to be true. However, despite my desire to be under 200 pounds, despite how much I want to reach my goal weight, it is not a journey with a destination.
For me, it's a process that has permeated every area of my life. I have changed everything from how I brush my teeth to how I sit. It feels as though it has come about effortlessly but I do not think that this is the case. See #2.
2 - No failure, no matter how abysmal, is a failure. I've been working at losing weight and getting fit since before I was overweight and out of shape. I'm not kidding or exaggerating. I had a 24 inch waist and took at least 4 dance classes a week and believed I was fat and out of shape.
As a result, I am, like many of us, an expert on what I 'should' do. I'm an expert on how to eat, how to exercise, and how important water is. I've read about sleep. I know what cortisol is. I know how many calories a gram of fat is.
Everytime I have failed at losing weight I have felt as though I wasted my time. That isn't true though. The whole process is about learning.
Everytime I failed, I learned some new trick that helps in the physical process of losing weight.
Everytime I failed, I learned something about myself.
3 - If I am open and receptive to the process, and what this process and life has to teach me, I can learn in joy.
I regret to confess that once I decided to lose weight, it hasn't been hard for me at all. I can't remember when I last had so much fun.
Previously I spent a lot of money on fast food and takeout. Now I cook. I experiment with food. Sometimes I try out new recipes. Sometimes I make up a recipe. It's an adventure.
When I want to eat something special, I make it. If I want something good but want to spend some of my lunch break resting, I eat a frozen meal or I make something simple.
It's an adventure.
4 - Exercise is about play. Another thing I have always been told is to choose exercise that you enjoy. When I was young, I was a dancer. So, at 296 lbs I started doing zumba with my wii and then to mix it up, I did some ea active. I found that although the things that I did with ea active were not things that I would normally choose, I enjoyed the interactive part of it so much (basically being told that I was doing well!!) that I stuck with it.
Now at 219 I jog a mile outside with my dog every day. The enjoyment for me is being with my dog, the fresh air, and the music I am listening to. The endorphin high comes later.
I also am going to hour long live Zumba classes now. I can do 2 a day time allowing.
Rediscovering joy in movement and the sense of accomplishment is far stronger than any hesitation that I may have to 'not' work out.
5 - It's important to remain flexible. I've been losing weight while working full time plus about 20 hours a week. I've also been going to school full time. I have a dog and a kitten. I also have a Ison. It's important to remain flexible, go with the flow, and adjust my schedule and/or focus when needed.
Granted I work from home and go to school online. I know for a fact that it is harder to workout when you leave your house to go to work because I have had to do that a few times and it is more challenging. I know that I am very lucky in my situation.
6 - Taking care of yourself is about loving yourself is about finding joy in being yourself is about expressing yourself and ultimately is about seeing beauty and love in everything and everyone.
That sentence may not make sense to anyone but me. LOL
I think Marylou Fastreau, an artist, said it best. One of her prints says this:
One day she woke up and. decided to decorate herself ... just like she did when she was a little girl.
7 - Finally, one of the biggest lessons I learned is that IF I am spending a lot of time online, even if it's on sparkpeople, that is less time I can spend exercising, or in my garden, or playing with my animals, or living a full life....
Sparkpeople is a great resource and support system. Like all good things though it has it's negative aspect. I usually only spend a brief time on here and as you can see, I only have a few friends. This isn't my first go around with sparkpeople and so this hasn't always been the case. I had to walk away from the computer and live in the 3 dimensional world before I could lose weight. This may not be true for everyone. But it is for me.
These were just some thoughts I had. I hope they are of use to someone and that everyone has a great day!!